blurry...

just came back from cousin wedding dinner...
i think i had almost 4-5 glass of red wine...
so a bit dizzy rite now..hahahaha

sometimes...i am not so fancy on goin to wedding dinner..
just make me feel jealous...
n thinking...will i ever hav those days...

this time round...
i hav more to think...
thinking of something else..

irritate me...
hav no idea y i think of those things...

yes...

yes...dont hesitate...
that answer is fine..
i just want to know...
n thanks for telling..

oh no....

not again...
no money de...wuhuhuhuhuhuhu...
just went shoppin wit rae today after our cme practice...
1st stop food!
we went to canton-i in the gardens for our lunch...

this is wat we had...hehehe


this is wat i drank...flower tea...there are jasmin,green tea and also magnolia..:)


then this is the snack that came 1st...ordered it because my sis say it is very nice!
:)
n indeed...love it...it is actually yau cha kuai wrap with chee cheong fun...yummy...


n this is my main course...prawn wantan noodle..
thier signature dish...very good indeed...the whole wantan is full of prawns!

so how about rae?
this is wat she do...



smile n eat ntg...

just joking...she ate siu kow noodle...taste about the same like mine...just that hers is in soup... :)

n then...we went shoppin!
rae was lookin for her crocs...in the end...also no size..
but she got it anyway when she went back to the one in 1u...hahaha

me?
as i say i am broke...so wat hav i buy...
haih...so called nonsense...hahaha..
got myself a set of brushes and gel eyeliner..
price...dont wanna mention... :P

n i got lost in the car park...
i parked at the roof top of gardens which i never parked before..
n i couldnt find my car...i thought my car went missing...
oh...in the end...my car was actually parked at the other end of roof top...
hahahaha..silly me... :P

please...

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don't want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

prize giving night!

last mon...15/12/08
ls music organized it annual prize giving night...
this was the 1st time i joined this event cause werent free last year...haahaha
n this year...i hav 3 students who score distinction for theory exam!
so goin to give out trophy to them!
so..here u go...pictures during that night...
n special thanks to mr kee how gen for these wonderful pic...


li ying..sun sun...and...me at the reception... :)


me and li ying again


ls music boss and me...handling me a token of appreciation...hehehe


oh...my 3 students...from left..amanda,nurshuhada and raja zarif...so proud of them.. :D


all teachers and staff that came that day...i think i dont know almost 90% of them...hahaha

fairytale do exist..

after watching video from leonard (a professional photograher) i do think fairytale do come true...
all the moment he captured in the video was fabulous...just like fairytale..
i like the one in langkawi...
it was almost like something i dream of..
but instead of langkawi...i would prefer redang...(for now...unless i found a nicer place) :)

i am still waitin for my fairytale to come true..
when will it be?

ps: do click on leonard on my friend list and check out those wonderful video.. :)

misery...

i dont know wat i wan now...
to stay on with the way it is...
or find out the truth..
(but the truth might not be the truth)
or just stop watever is goin on once n for all...
(i had tried...actually...but seems like i just couldnt let go)
how?

so called holiday trip...

me n my parent n my niece went genting yesterday...
suppose to be staying there till tmr but because of the weather we decided to leave...

so...how was it?
for me...i enjoyed a wonderful chinese musical called " magic mirror"
it was story about kuan yin...
the choreography was superb!
as for the story...not too bad though i dont understand some of the parts..hahaha
but the weird thing is...1st of all it was full house...
full house of SENIOR CITIZEN!
hahahahahaha
seems like i am the only young adult there...
well there are kids...but i believe they r force to watch it..
hahahah
the worst part was actually my seating...
it is free seating...n when i reach...i have to sit at the LAST row...
terrible seating...trying to find holes to catch a glimpse of those actor n actress throughout the whole show!hahahaha

so ya...thats was the best part for the whole trip..
the bad one is...i spend money on clothes again...
hahahaha...luckily it was just 2 t-shirts... :P

this is me n my niece..she dont look happy here cause i am forcing her to take pic with me...hahahahaha

i dont like holiday now...

because of the boringness of holidays...
i was so tempted to go out whenever ppl ask me to...
like today...auntie rae ask me out of blue moon to go shoppin in time square...
at 1st...i thought better not...so i rejected her...

in the end...cant resists the temptation...so LETS GO!
hahahaha

the best part is...this is not the 1st time i been there this month...
i hav been there for 3 consecutive weeks!
so now...i am bored of bkt bintang!

last week...because i need to bring my aunty n cousin there...
so i got myself a long sleeve blouse...

n this week...finally got back to buy the maxi dress that i've tried last week..
well...like rae say...if i still like that particular thing after the 2nd visit..
then it must be i definately like it...
so yea...finally got myself a maxi dress...

n walk over to pavilion to hav our dinner...
we had tenpayaki and tau fu fah...yummy...

then...sings "singing in the rain" while we walk back to time square..
JUST JOKING...hahaha
on the way...pass by lot 10 to get my necklace clean up in perlini...
and again...got myself a pair of earing...
n was tempting to buy the ring...
well..lets c if i still like it on the 2nd trip as rae wanna go there again..
hahahahaha

stop me from goin OUT!

no...i cant go out anymore...
something magical just happen to me this month...
the everytime i go out...i definately hav something to buy...
seems like this is shoppin month...
die die die...
today...even in jusco cheras selatan...
i can get myself 3 t-shirts?

OMG...
i NEED to STOP myself from goin OUT!!!!!

sweet...

while i walk out from my studio heading towards the reception..
suddenly u poped out from ur studio and holding that lil girl's hand..
smiling happily...

it was the sweetest moment that i ever see...

doin 2S in time square...hehe

wonderful day out in time square...
but 1stly...me n my mom went over to sg wang...
main task was to get my sis her dress...
but in the end...before we even got to the shop...we already got ourselves so many clothes!!!!
hahahaha
then after that went for kim gary for lunch...

got my sis dress...then look at my watch...
" wow..is already 2pm!!!!"
so we walk as fast as we could to time square for our SPA... ah~

the SPA treatment took us about 2 hours...
so after spa it is already 4.30pm..
how is the treatment??
relaxin yet painful...hahaha
i got bruises on my leg!
n it is super worth it...as both of us only pay RM34 each <---promotion...
hahahaha

so after that...SHOPPIN again!!!!
shop n shop n shop until 7pm..
we head for steamboat in tmn len sen...
yummy...
love my day!

n so...y 2S?
cause today is shopping and spaing in time square!!!

u know...this month i am super broked!
i got myself so many things!
1stly...went genting wit nic n jes...i got myself 1 pair of heels,a long sleeve blouse and a grey blouse from padini concept store...



then sunway trip...i got myself a magenta sleeveless blouse from forever 21..



then sg wang with rae...got myself my concerto book...n another pair of heels from vincci...this time black...n it only arrive in store like 2 or 3 days ago!
best of all after deducting watever discount i hav...i only pay half the retail price!
n...when i go back on the 2nd trip...it no longer on rack!hahahaha

n last sat...went shoppin with my sis in sg wang then midvalley...got myself 3 wonderful books by cecilia ahern (author of ps i love)...

n today's trip?
whoa...a lot!
1st i got 2 almost alike jacket from sg wang...and also a dress also from sg wang...





then...after the spa...went shoppin around time square..
1st...i got myself a dress again...hahaha



then...walk around...got my short jeans which i hav been lookin for a long time...



and then and then...saw a very cheap skirt...n guess how much?

<
is only RM10!!!

and finally...before i go...
1st saw the bead necklace which also i has been huntin for it...
then walk around...saw a nicer one..which i can transform into many type of pattern...buy!hahahaha




think i am a big spender today? well my mom werent missing the fun as well..
she herself got 3 blouses...which is consider a lot for her...hahaha

fuh~ luckily...tmr's bangsar plan is cancelled...or else...i am super DEAD...hahaha

hangin on?

dont know wat is goin to happen next..
n definately dont like that kind of feelin...
wat r u thinkin bout now?
wat is ur plan?
how does it is suppose to go?
am i suppose to continue with the way i am?
am i suppose to just let it happen?
or am i suppose to think of solutions?

really..

TELL ME WAT TO DO!?

1st try!

if i not mistaken...i never play be4 any mendelssohn's pieces...
n...for the very 1st time i am playin piano concerto...
i chose him! hahaha
i cant believe his piano concerto is so BEAUTIFUL!
love both of them...
but because the 1st piano concerto hav too many chords...i chose piano concerto no.2...
wish me luck...quite difficult...
hopefully i can do this well!
here u go...mendelssohn's piano concerto no.2

after 2 years...

after 2 years...i am back in sunway lagoon again!
this time with cindy, raechen and cindy's friend, grace...
not too bad...quite fun...
but not as fun as the last one because there is quite a no of ppl in there..

then after lagoon...we went for 'lunchner' in WENDYS
hmm...1st time eatin a square beef burger...hahaha
not bad...it is quite nice and not pricy at all...it is just about mcd's price...

after that...when shop around piramid...
n got myself a maroon color blouse from forever 21...
quite cheap in my opinion... :)
n i think it is quite suitable for performance and mpo...hahahaha

finally...before we go back...me n rae got ourselves some J.CO donuts...
well..i think the topping were nicer than big apple...
but the bread part...big apple is definately nicer...
:)

phew...

"u did not do well in ur jury" said mr lee...
my mood drops from the sky...
"but u pass la"
oh...thank god for putting a net out and save me...
hahahaha
really...super glad that i pass my jury..
cause after the exam...i knew i might fail it..

but seriously...u cant expect me to do well when it is a short sem n my beethoven is like super long? 20++ pages k!
it is really killing me...
practice so hard but yet not good...

oh well...like rae say...
we shall work harder for our concerto...
seems like that is the only jury that we might get a A..
hopefully i'll get one...

genting!

ok...as mention be4...me nicole and jeslyn went to genting on sun till tues..
to be exact i went on sun n they join me on mon...hehehe..
hmm...met them around 11am..n my dad drove us to first world hotel from highland hotel..
reach 1st world hotel...jaws drop...
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY ppl!!!
my dad got no. 516?
which means there are like 515 ppl waitin before us...
*faint*
n worst of all...the no. only start counting at 12pm...
so...in the end..need to "mah fan" my dad to wait till like 3 something only we get to check in...

being my good daddy...he ask us to go enjoy ourselve in theme park while he wait for the long que...
so...we went to buy ticket and START!
hahahaha
1st stop...the rockin ship...hahaha
it was so called new to me cause i never sat that ride be4...
but...dissappointed...haih...
wat a boring ride...
ok...we play around and it started to rain...
and 3 something...my dad called..
so we headed to our room..
ting...the lift opens...
"har? did my dad say the wrong tower? looks like this floor is under construction!"
we walk further in...worst!
looks like the place is haunted...with all the plastic fliping on the wall..
so...walk out n call my dad again...
"dad...u sure is 10th floor room 10915 tower 2?"
n indeed yes it is...

that is the scariest hotel i ever been...hahahahaha

so...how was the trip...?
hilarious! funny! crappy! EXCITING!
hahahaha
u know...with me and jeslyn...
it will never be a quiet trip! hahahahaha
and in the end...come home with a sorethroat!
enjoy it!
n definately a real stress reliever...

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so...came back on tues...n at night...went for unit asia performance in mpo..
a great performance!
they r real GOOD!
but i just feel that the enviroment is so not for jazz music...
u just feel like something is missing..
missing a noisy crowd and most importantly...missing a jug of beer...hahahaha
too bad no one could accompany me to no black tie after the performance...
y? joseph say the group will be goin there after their performance!
haih...wat a waste!
oh well...is definately a great night...
and the very 1st time i could put nicer make-up on myself...hahaha
thanks to my sis's bobby brown gel eyeliner and eyeshadow...hahahaha
love the gel eyeliner...will definately get one when i hav the money...
:D

PISSED!

i am pissed with him since the 1st day of orchestra rehersal!
n today is the day to tell him off...

1st of all...he being no brain...
tries to open the recital hall door eventhough the piano is so AUDIABLE!
n wat is the reason he gave?
"how would i know there is an exam goin on?
i am a 1st semester student here"
ok...FINE...if u dont know there is an exam goin at least wait till that person finish playin his/her piece then only u come in la...then i said...i believe if i ask any 1st semester they would know...
his answer..."i have no friends...thats y"
SWEAT!

"btw,how would i know if that person is just practicing in the hall!?"

THIS IS MANNER!
not about U KNOW IT OR NOT!

oh well...he felt offended...
so wat he say...
"if she is a good pianist she could continue eventhough there is someone bangin the door"

and and and...
"it is also very RUDE for the way u speak to me"
and and and...
"your friend also has no manner too...goin out half way during the rehersal"

so ppl...how would u categorize this KIND of person...?
cant fight against me and in the end took out some grandma story to put me off?

GO HOME N TALK TO UR GRANDMA LA...
CANT FIGHT ME MEANS U CANT...

really cant wait for tmr concert to end...
cause best of all...i dont need to SEE u for the rest of the day!
and btw...today is not ur day...cause even my horoscope say it is the day to shout at someone i dont like n i will most likely win the FIGHT!

so ya...TOO BAD!

n if u ever get my nerves...
i will use all my energy to carry up a double bass and throw it at u...
definately the spike will be poke into ur MOUTH!


ps: sorry to whoever other than HIM who read my blog...as i am being so aggressive...hahahaha

done!!!

finally...done with jury...
now wats left is orchestra concert!!!
YEA!!!

how was jury?
haih...not good at all...
book is in front of me but yet...playing wrongly...stop here n there...

*_*

hopefully i can pass la..

dont care...
wat i care now is my holiday!
hahahahahaa...

oh btw...
sounds like wat my friend say is true...
i think i got panic attack...
never thought it would happen to me...
but...ya it did...
n it still bother me before jury...
haih...

n thanks nicole n jeslyn for comin to pasar malamin with me...
having GREAT time!
purely stress reliever...
hahahaha
:)

hope for the best

jury is tmr...
hopefully everything goes well...

today?
haih...no idea wat happen to me...
woke up around 4.45pm..
n...oh no!!! i am late...
so quickly take my clothes n headed to bathroom..
n dizziness strike me...
so many stars in front of me!
walk out from the bathroom...
n eventually fell down...as my feet were wet...

so ya...bruises all over my leg..hand..n chest...
*_*

n in the end...cant even go for orchestra rehersal...

thank god i am feeling better now...
were pretty worried about if i could make it for jury...
so ya...thank god...

done done done...

finally...i am kinda done with my term paper...
now wats left is jury and orchestra concert...
haih...
JUST CANT WAIT FOR EVERYTHING TO OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nvm nvm...
still got 4 more days...
n hoorraaayyyyy!!!!

n very 1st vacation already planned...
which falls on coming sun...hahaha
where?
genting...
hahahaha...
yea...even though it is very near..
but better than ntg lo..
hopefully my dad manage to book room for me nic and jes...
:)

flowery love...

great relief...
all my written test is done...
wats left is 3 performance exam n one concert...
oh...n of course...i hav to work on my term paper...

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these days...my house has been full of flowers...
1stly...my mom grew some sunflowers which was gorgeous...


beauty of nature...



hmm...sunflowers...to me...it represent a new beginning...
and of course...always look at the bright side...
that is wat the sunflowers did...never ever look away from the sun...hahahaha...

n the next flower that was also in my house...
i dont know wat is the english name for this flower...
but in canto i think it is call the "kieng fa"

a very very special flower indeed...
it never seems to shine in daylight...
y?
it only blooms at night...
n after few hours of glory...
it return back to its original form...
n specially...i have 7 of them...
n they all bloom together at the same night...which was yesterday night...

but of course...there r 2 of them that i particularly fell in love with...
it grows out from 1 leaf...
looks like as if...they were a couple that began a new life...
but...sadly...their love could only be seen at night...
it was for only few hours that they could actually see each other's personality and beauty...
but think of it another way round...
the shorter the time u hav...the more u appreciate each other...

view it urself...yet another great creation of mother nature...








enjoy n good nite..

u will never get wat u expect to get...

i have to stop dreamin...
dreaming dreams that is almost impossible to happen...
so many things that i expect in my life dint really goes the way i want it to...
n i hav lost faith in dreams...

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whole day has been studying...
i am pretty ok with wat has dr jeff taught us...
but ms chong?
haih...like rae say....is more of memorizing word by word rather than by understanding...
which i really hate...
i hate malaysian way of teaching and learning process...
irritating...

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just read my friends blog....
eyes fill with tears...
it reminds me of my grandfather...
he is the best grandparent i hav...
so i really really miss him...
sometimes...
while i was driving...
seeing an old man with short pants n shirt riding a motorbike reminds me of him...
i never expect i will lose him so soon...
i wish he could be in my convo picture just like he did in my sis's pic...
i miss you...

anyway...to my beloved friend...
i hope u can stand strong n go thru watever exams u hav in coming days...
good luck...

week 7=14 weeks

there goes my short sem...
only 1 days left...

n yet...i hav assessment on the last day of lecture...
wat a "wonderful" semester...

haih...finally jury date is out...
mine is on 29th oct..
which i am kinda happy about it..
the earlier...the better...

n another happy thing is..
term paper deadline is postpone to 28th oct...
YEA!!!
means i dont need to touch it until i finish my finals which is next mon n tues...

cant wait for 29th oct to come...
nervous but of course i rather it come faster than keep on waitin...

i need a proper break after that...
stress-free...

stress is in the AIR

i feel the STRESS again...
after knowing when will my cme exam be and
ms chong were like telling us wat will be up in exam?
STRESS...

n worst of all...2nd keyboard skill accessment is like 2 days time...
DIE...

today...went to upm for rehersal again...
thought raechen could show the way to that so call music hall...
but in the end...we need someone to guide us there...
hahahahaha

well...being late is not too bad afterall...
we managed to get our dream come true by sitting at the last row...
FAR FAR AWAY FROM "you know who"
hahahahhaha

everytime he wants to turn behind and make comment...
he was blocked by 2 cellist from upm...
so in the end...no message sent!
muahahahahahahaha
LOVE OUR SEATING NOW...
hahahahaha

haih...i guess i better go sleep now..
so tired..

strucked by god of shoppin..

man...i think i've been strucked by god of shoppin...
today went for shoppin AGAIN!
hahahahaha

this time...sg wang n time square...
dint get anything from sg wang...
but..
after dinner...
everything changed...

got so many clothes today!
1st i got a dress for like RM25 only?
then 2 short pants and a black tube for the dress..
and finally a jacket...

n total?
i think is about RM100...
which is like not even enough to pay for my crocs...
hahahahaha
unbelievable man...

cant really go shopping anymore...
1st of all...no money de...
then i believe it will be 3 more very very busy week...
hopefully everything goes well in comin weeks...

whoa...unbelievable

was actually plan to go shopping with ms cindy and raechen...
end up goin shoppin with my darling...suet mun...

how to describe this shopping trip...
in a word....WONDERFUL!

never ever feel so satisfied for a looooooooooooong time de..
this is really a stress reliever..after so many busy days in college...

so summary on wat i got!

1st stop..FOS
got a very cheap short pants for only RM30 !!!!

next...P & CO...
again...cheap stuff...
a blouse for only RM15.60?
hehehehe

then....CROCS..
a mary jane with color: cotton candy..
+++ 2 deco...
u dont wanna know the price...
hahahaha

and finally...last stop be4 we go back...
3.6
yet another cheap thing...
a skirt for only RM29.70!


seriously...never expect that i would get so many things from this shopping trip..
btw...where i go?
of course my 2nd home...MIDVALLEY...hehehehe

oh...not to mention...
we had dinner in SAN FRANCISCO...
no no no...not the city...
but the steak house..
hehehe
at 1st i thought it will be quite pricey...
it is quite pricey but it is about the same as chilis or tony romas...
just slightly more ex...

so ya...i LOVE my day!

btw...did i mention i got a PSP like 3 days ago?
hahahaha...other than shopping..
i was ENJOYIN playin my psp...hehehee

JEALOUS?

muahahahahaha

half dead...

last night was the most terrible night...
wanted to study history around 10.30..
but at 11 something...my eyes already half closed...
so decided to take a nap till 2am..

woke up at 2am...
study study study until 4am...

go back to sleep...

and finally woke up at 9am because of my irritating niece...

arggg...
worst of all...
all that i had read dint really come out in exam...
but luckily i passed the exam..

another to go tmr...
which i know i will do pretty bad..

wish me luck...
@_@

weeeeeeeeeee

today's rehersal was very exciting!
we finally hav someone that has power to shut his mouth!
thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much...

really hope that he just couldnt stand it and leave orchestra imediately...
hahahaha..

stop bossing around with all ur big fat lies la!
U R NOT GOOD MEANS U R NOT!
that is the FACT!
it doesnt mean that we say we r better than u...
but at least we r tryin to be better...
rather than sayin words like "i cant believe i am the only cello major here"

see you in my dream

Every night I cry myself to sleeping
All because you ain’t here by my side
There’s a missing part of me
And that missing part is you
So I make-believe that you were here
.
This whole song is all that’s left of you babe
Wish that you could be here in July
I can hardly breathe my baby
Sucked the life out of me
Give me one more try
.
I can barely breathe my baby
Sucked the life out of me
I’ll just see you in my dream

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fall in love with this song...
it is a song by justin lo
emotional..

........

never expect it will be as bad as today..
i know i werent well prepared but...seems like the result is worst then i expected..
i hope i could still stand strong and keep myself goin on till the very end..

i dont wanna go on with this sem...

feel like cryin now...
i feel like i cant take the stress i am goin on now...
recital is tmr...
almost every week got quiz for history...
next week midterm...
did very badly for keyboard skills...n hopefully i will pass it..
jury pieces were not well prepare yet...
stuck with the irritating principle...

seems like everything just appear in this sem...
I DONT LIKE MY LIFE NOW!!!!!

ARGGGGGG...

STOP BUGGIN US WILL YA?
WE KNOW WAT WE R DOIN LA!
PRINCIPLE! SO WAT!?????? @#%^&*%#$%^$%^#$

hah? another time

oh man...left recover now right hand pulak?
i think this time...i strain my finger muscle...
DIE...better recover asap!!!!!

really wanna express myself about orchestra...
seriously...u think u r that good?
"hello"!!!! we r musician too k...
of course we know simple stuff like con sordini...divisi...etcccccc..
wat i am thinking now is... 'I DONT LIKE U AS PART OF US'
GRRRRR...
yes yes yes...u do help us a lot in fingering...
so wat...U R BEING TOO BOSSY!!!!!
i rather work out the fingerin myself or ask help from jo...

thought goin hav lots of fun in orchestra since we hav a very nice conductress...
mana tahu came out this "chan sai mei"
ARRRGGGG...U RUIN MY DAY!!!!

if time allow me to DROP orchestra n join choir...
I WILL
hopefully next sem's

he get lost
or
choir time suit my timetable..

or else...i will die working together with him..
ARRRGGGG...

aching...

feels like my left hand hav no energy...
dunno if it is because i practice too much today...
OR
i hurt my muscle when exercising....

hopefully it will recover tmr...

n...i am so dead...my recital piece is not well memorized yet...
n next week is my recital de!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH...
cannot believe i am in sem 6 de...
so called "senior"
hahahaha

cant wait to graduate next year...

????

i really dunno n dont wanna make decision...

wheeeeee...

kinda happy with my result...
got 3As!
hahahaha
n best of all...i PASSED my aural!!!!
yea!!!!!

but...seriously...not looking forward to this sem...
take a look at my thurs timetable..

9-10am tutorial
11-1pm orchestra
1-2pm major
2-4pm history
4-6pm cme

did u c any break time other than 10-11?
the answer is NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dunno how to survive..haih...

hmm...orchestra...today..we hav rehersal..
and around 8 something...someone we dont know came in n sit in.
n be4 u know it...we believe he took one of our friend's phone!!!
how daring is this kind of ppl...
UNBELIEVABLE!

=D

melted heart...
thank you so much...

i understand..

was watchin a show on astro aec just now..
it was a chat with our olympic silver medallist...lee chong wei...
feel very bad for our country sportmen and sportwomen as we wont understant how much stress they undergo during the competition..

n for chong wei...the stress he undergo is so much more bigger...as he know the whole country gave him a big hope on gettin the gold medal..but he failed to do so..
if i were him...i seriously dunno how to go on with my life..

but...he is a real strong man...still have the energy and commitment and full of hope in his up coming competition...hopefully...he will create a bigger history in his future in badminton...

besides...his coach...misbun sidek...is another great person and i shall say...malaysia are lucky to have both chong wei and sidek..
his coach...was a very hardworking and responsible coach...
despite on facing and take caring of his sick wife...
he still keep his responsible as chong wei's coach...followed and guided chong wei throughout this beijing olympic games 2008...
a SALUTE to both heros of our country...


seriously...i do understand how he felt right after the shuttlecock dint go pass the net and lost the game...
really..feels like it is the end of the world...
i believe...if i were him at that time...these questions will go through my mind...
"how could i not win this game?"
"why cant i find a strategy?"
"i am such a failure"
"i let my family,coach and country down"

then...tears will just automatically rolled down my cheek...

y i know?
cause i been through something like that be4...
eventhough it is not a big event like this...
eventhough i am not facing the stress as big as he does...
still..

wat happen was...i came out from my gd 7 practical exam..
that was the 1st time i feel like doomsday..
sent a msg to my teacher n said "i believe i am goin to fail my exam"
then...tears just keep on rolling down...
dont even dare pickin up my teacher's phone call..

n...the 2nd time was just early this month..
but dont feel like mentioning it..

anyway...again congrats chong wei and keep it up!
hopefully the next olympic you will get a gold medal!
:)

?

wat r u thinking rite now?
i need an answer...

unpredictable

sometimes...i dont really know wat myself want in my life...
for instance...my career...wat am i really goin to be...piano teacher for the rest of my life? thats sound bored and no great achievement...
but i know myself...i am not a very good performer..so the performer line shouldnt be in my list..though i wish i could...

no wonder...my parent were kinda disagree when i decided to take music as my study course...but i guess they were ok with it now cause i get to earn some money from teaching...but serious speaking..i dont really like it..

oh well...i chose this road...so i got to continue walking through the whole process...

then...when it come to my personal life...
hmm...like i say be4...i always dream to have a very sweet and lovely relationship...
but...i feel that dream will always be dream...i guess it will never happen in real life...so i feel unsatisfied with it..
seriously...if it did came true...i know the relationship will last forever...

so shall i stop dreaming and wake up into the real world...
or continue with my sweet dream until i really bump into it?
argg...i hate being me...

good job!

yes...eventhough malaysia dint win the gold medal in badminton...
still chong wei did a good job!
congrats on getting silver medal for malaysia!!!!

but got to admit it...
lin dan is very good player!
no wonder he is no one player in the world!

sweet..

ever wonder...a person can be with u no matter wat happen to u...
eventhough u r not pretty...u has been diagnosed with chronic sickness..u r goin to die soon...
if there is such person...remember...they would want to live with u n capture every single things u do...every single smile u have...every single pain u r goin through...until the very end...

perhaps i am being a real pisces...also dream of having something...
i really hope that i could hav such person in life...
being with me no matter wat happen...support me...help me make any decisions that i have to make...n most important of all...make me happy...

a thought inspired by a drama called "the Seventh day"
i finally get to watch the whole drama...
perhaps another movie that inspired me was "Ps I Love You"

done..

finally...we r done with orchestra concert...
not too bad for this time...
as we hav our new conductress...ms cheryl mah...
most of the comment i got was actually quite good.

n also...thanks ms sun sun to come support me..
feel more motivated when there is someone i know that is enjoyin the show...
n at the end she gave me a hand<---was a soft toy hand of course..
thank you sooooooooo much....

seems like dr png and eliz is happy about the performance...
with the 1st time i saw eliz smillin while we play...
n also the 1st time..dr png said that it is an enjoyable performance...

so....after all the hard work n all the trouble we encountered for our piano ped...
we went to renderous cafe to have our dinner...
food there is not too bad...
i prefer to go sakae...:)

i really got to say..thanks again to ms sun sun...n her gift...
really brighten up my day...i werent in a very good mood be4 that...
hope that u werent disappointed as i werent the spotlight of the day..

falling...

feels like i am dropping from the sky...high...high..high up in the sky..
n when i reach the ground..it crushes my heart into billions of pieces...
i no longer have the energy to move...

almost there...

wow...finally the worst week is over...
done with aural...cme...choir concert...

now wats left is piano ped final project...orchestra concert and psychology...
cant wait!!!

went shopping with lovely girl which comprise of ms cindy..rain...and of course joelin...

1st time for all of us other than cindy to step into telawi street in bangsar..
well...quite a nice place to shop but just dont like the enviroment...i guess if this is in genting then it will be great...

y? all the boutiques is in the street and worst of all...most of them are on either 2nd floor or 3rd floor...
so hav to climb up n down...

i got a black blouse that i wanted which makes raechen jealous...hehehe
as usual...cindy got the most clothes...

cindy brought us to one of this shop that sells fake branded bags and so on..
was tempted to buy the LV wallet...but too bad...the owner dint reduce the price for me...so end up dint buy...

then...we head on to midvalley for KIM GARY!!!
yummy...
after kimgary...we go for a short shopping trip around mv..
and without choices...i got to buy a black pants which i dont really like from soda...
love the black pants from topshop but not size de... :(

oh well...head back to college around 5.15pm for cme concert...
love being the usher of the day cause dont need to sit in n watch...hahahaha

and finally...close my lovely day with a movie "meet dave" in time square..
enjoy it.. ^_^

*faint*

busy busy busy...
so busy!!!!!!!!!
y they cramp everything in this week!!!!!

CME assessment....aural finals....choir concert....orchestra rehersal...CME concert...final week for doin Piano ped final project....

wah.....crazy la!!!!

really cant wait for this week to end...

then i got all my time to study for psych's final...

the moment

i do enjoy the moment...
but is that REALLY true?
i cant tell it myself..

but seriously...
i do miss it...

ps: sorry if u dont understand wat i am sayin...cause i dont either..

finally i know something...

really...finally i knew wat i wan...
wat i really wan is a trip to a beach with my love ones...
imagine...how sweet and lovely it would be...sittin on the warm..soft and smooth sands...huggin each other...listenin to music from the sea...
looking at stars at night..

i believe this is wat i really wan now...

gettin better...

oh well...i think with all the hard work that i put into playin the swan...
it really worth doin it...
i could see slight improvement in me...
but still...there are some technical things that somehow i still cant pull thru it..
i wonder y...
haih...hopefully everything will go well in the final performance...

i am a SHOPAHOLIC!

wow...i love shopping...
today...went shoppin wit raechen...
luckily i skip aural while she cancel her major class...
or else...really not enough time to shop...
actually...not really enough even when we cancel class...
cause i got to teach at 7pm...so got to leave midvalley at 6pm

so then...we reach midvalley around 1pm...
oh man...so many ppl...so...hard to find parking..
n worst of all...i saw a girl wanted to go out...then this dumb man who stuck in a dead road shoo me off...! GRRR...
anyway...later on..i turned into one junction and found 3 EMPTY PARKING! hahaha

so..by then...raechen was already quein up at KIMGARY...
she sent me a sms while i was in toilet...

"if u r shopping now while i am patiently waiting...i will kill u :* this is not fun!"

hahahahahaha...
well...i WASNT OK!
hahahahahaa

so then...as usual...i had my nissin noodles...raechen too...
then...start SHOPPING!

went into MNG-ZARA-PDI-PADINI AUTHENTIC-DOROTHY PERKINS-TOPSHOP-MISS SELFRIGE-NICHII-ISETAN-PROMOD-ROBBINSON-LA SENZA-VINCCI

so...at the end of the day...i got myself 3 new la senza bras...hehehe...a t-shirt which say..."2 hearts are better than one" and of course...a pair of lovely heels!

how about raechen? she got some blouse...but was dissappointed cause she still cant find the long sleeve shirt that she wanted to buy from MNG...

as for me...wanted to buy a short pants...but in the end dint get it...will definately go for another round! hahahaha

I LOVE SHOPPING!

i am a SHOPAHOLIC!

haih....

it is a happy day...
was havin a class concert in yamaha...
everything went well...
n so...after...the whole group of us go dinner at fatty crab for celebration..

nice food...with a sweet couple...
i do feel jealous of those ppl who hav nice bf...
do feel happy for them...but is just that i am wonderin y does it not happening on me?

is like wat rae say...just dont hav the love luck...
i just hate my love life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awwww...

joseph cancelled class today...
so end up reachin home around 1pm...
had lunch...watch some drama...then decided to go take nap be4 my student come...
(or else they will hav hard time wit me in class...hahaha)
thought that nap will wakes me up and charge my energy...
but i end up with a headache....
still aching now...

feel kinda disappointed now...
thought i could do some shopping during mega sales tmr...
but end up all my friends were not free...
so...i suppose i will end up sleeping at home again tmr afternoon..

n so...because joseph cancel class today...
he will do replacement tmr at 10am...
so goin to skip masterclass...
hahahaha...

hancock...

oh man...finally we got to watch hancock this week...
me n nicole booked ticket..but both of our reservations is being cancelled cause we arrived late!
DAMN!
so end up...taking the row B seat...
neck aching now!

hmm...but not regreting watchin it...
it is VERY NICE!
so people...please go watch...hahahaha....

doomsday...

really a doomsday man...
planing to watch HANCOCK with nicole n rachel...
end up full house...the only seat left is row A
cant imagine that...
so end up dint watch that movie... :(

since nicole booked DOOMSDAY for backup...
we ended up watchin that movie..

well...nice or not??
not too bad la...but a bit weird in my opinion...
in a punk world at the 1st place then suddenly...we move on to the ancient world...
weird...

well..be4 we watch the movie...we were camwhorin...hahahaha
is just too boring to wait for the movie to start in an hour time...
so i took out my camera n click click n click...hahahaha

watches for sale?


YO YO!



wat is she doin?



yea!!!!!


look at her lashes!



finally she smiled properly...hahaha

not too bad...

well...for the very 1st time being a soloist...
i guess it werent that bad...

but seriously...
my hands were shakin like crazy!!!!!
not my left hand but right hand...
which causes the bow to bounce a lil...hahahaa
well..partly is because i thought the rest of the orchestra ppl will be playing...
but... NO!
none of them are playing except for the pianists...
so then...SO MANY PAIR OF EYES WERE STARIN AT ME....
scary...
n worst of all...dr png was inside the class...
*faint*

oh...wat am i talkin about?
i am the cello soloist for the swan..from carnival of animals...

hopefully on the performance night everything goes well...
keep fingers crossed...!

summary...

wow...just pass those credit card money to my dad...
i cant believe i spend soooooooooo much this month...

so here is a summary on wat i buy...

1.musicophilia...a book from borders
2.dogfood...for messy
3.a dress...from mng
4.a dark grey short pants..from mng
5.a pink stripey blouse...from padini authentic
6.a necklace with a schnauzer...from perlini
7.a black short pants...from dorothy perkins
8.a long flowery blouse...from p & co...

how much does all this came up to?
u do the maths urself...

please...i need someone to control me!!!!!!!! arrrgg....

fuh....

great...finally everything is done...
midterm is over..
hmm...talkin about midterm...i seriously need to improve on sight-singing...
anyone can help??
how was my aural midterm...overall...still ok...at least i pass the exam...
hahahaha

next...ms daisy cancelled the 2 assignment!!!!!!!!!
YEA!!!!
n my 1st assignment is done de...already PASSED UP!!!
FUH...

but...at 1st i thought everything seems to be settle...
but yet...piano ped got another presentation...
@_@

Y SO MANY PRESENTATION!!!!!!

oh well...
before startin my engine again...
plan to relax a bit this week...
n to round up the relaxing week...
me, nicole, and rachel is goin to watch GET SMART on sat night!!!
YEA!!!!!
so sorry Rachel...dint know u watch it de...
sorry...so watch again ya!!! hahahahaha

stress=sick

that is so true...
this sem, i took psychology as elective...
n according to the textbook...

STRESS MAY LEAD TO SICKNESS AS IT WILL LOWER YOUR IMMUNE SYSTEM..

this is so true k!
last week has been a midterm week...
ASSIGNMENTS, PRESENTATION, AURAL
n plus...PSYCH QUIZ on mon...

so then....after psych quiz....
I FALL SICK!!!!!!!
DAMN....

now...coughin and sneezing....
y ms Daisy know that stress is bad n still give us terrible quiz?
Y?

great relief...

well...after the aural midterm...i consider myself as truely stress free...
though...still hav psychology test on mon...n i havent finish my self-reflective essay...

so...today...after aural midterm...me n nicole went to midvalley for our 5 BERLIAN REUNION!!!!
well...not many of them turn out...n most of them were malays...
so turn out to be quite boring to me as i am not very very close to them...

hmm....did they change?
so far....i think no...except for boon li with a much longer hair which i already know...

well..actually my main point goin there is for SHOPPING!!!
is SALES ok?
so cant blame me on being so crazy...

this time...it is a very satisfying shopping trip for me...
got a dress and a short pants from MNG and also a blouse from PADINI AUTHENTIC
:D

but...the unhappy part is...again...i spend a lot this month...
i seriously need someone to control me...
or perhaps a better way...someone to sponsor me...hahahahaha

haih...got to finish up my essay now..
sayonara!

do u know...

do u know how stress am i?

the answer is on my forehead!
so many PIMPLES! arrggg

not good...

haih....i hate my life...or i shall say...i hate this sem...
not doin well in cme...(though ms chong do say we improved..)
I CANT PLAY THOSE STUPID NOTES!
TERRIBLELY DISSONANCE AND LOTS OF F***ING CHORDS!

i know u r unhappy with us...
but u must understand la...think of it as a whole...
we r almost finished with our piece...so dont need to be too rushing...
is better to polish up before moving to a new section...
or else...everything will be just a word... MESSY!
i believe u dont wan it to be like that...

i am sorry la...i dint really try my very best...
i just hav to many things to get it done...

worst of all...orchestra...
i got to admit...i dint practice orchestra pieces at all...
n now i need to play the swan solo part...
ARRGGGG...

I NEED A BREAK!

y there is no such thing as FERMATA/PAUSE in LIFE?

movie n movie n movie

2 movies in a week!
1st...me and my college gang went to watch KUNGFU PANDA in 1utama...
a good and entertaining cartoon...
worth ur time to watch...hahaha
then after movie...we when to Italianies to celebrate Cindy's birthday..
after Italianies....Laundry BAR....
we ordered a tower of drinks...forgot wat it is called...
nice drink!

then on fri night...ms nicole and rachel ask me out for another movie...
MADE OF HONOUR...
suprise?
me too...i thought it is suppose to be out next week...
but somehow...this TGV already hav it...
well...the story was just ok...
i prefered PS I LOVE YOU...hahahaha

PAIN!

OMG...it has been the 2nd day since my back hurts!
i seriously dont know wat happen but i guess it should be caused by my sleeping position...but i always sleep the same way...y it never happen be4 this?
argg....it is quite bad especially when i need to play the cello...

oh pain please go off....

12.15am...8th June 2008

drops n drops n drops of tears rolling down....
as it ended with a wonderful scene of Ireland...
she did found her next partner...

arent that suppose to be a happy ending?
y crying then?

back to 10.25pm 7th June 2008...
quarrelling happen between Holly and Gerry...
but it ended up sweetly as they hugging and kissing each other...

WINTER,thanks giving party...
"together we will remember that Gerry will always be with us"
tears rolling down yet another time...
Gerry is gone...brain tumor has finally taken his life away...

weeks after weeks...Holly has never been taking the fact that Gerry is gone...
she always thought that Gerry was still beside her...hugging her warmly..playing her songs on his guitar...
but...it is just yet another hallucination...

the night when Holly turn 30...
mother,sisters and friends came to her nasty, messy apartment to give her a suprise..
but...it werent wat she wants...
"DING DONG"
cake delivery...
on top of the cake...it is written with "happy 30th birthday HOLLY, from Gerry"
unbelievable...she thought it was yet another suprise that her friends organized for her...
she was wrong...with the cake..a voice recording was included...
and it says "hey baby..suprise...i know i will not be there for ur birthday...but i hav a plan for u baby....believe it or not...i written u letters...letters which will be delivered to you in a special way...dont need to guess how am i goin to do it... :)"

from the next day onwards...there will be one letter delivered to Holly each day...
wat is those letters about?
a very well planned road for Holly...
so that she will go on with her life as happy as possible...
it was also a process of letting her know...she need to forget about Gerry although they hav been to such a wonderful journey in the past...
and at the end of each letter...it says...

PS : I LOVE YOU

______________________________________
perhaps...i choose a right time to watch this movie...
PS: I LOVE YOU

it was a great one...cried throughout the whole movie...
there is a question scan thru my mind...
if...i ever be so unlucky that my husband past away earlier than me...
will he ever plan the road so that i could live on with a happier life?

happiest moment...

seriously....it is the happiest moment when i was with my 2 bestie...nicole and rachel....
we could laugh...we could joke...we could basically do anything together...
i really really enjoy the moment with them....
it was the most relaxing + stress-free moment...
really hope that it would be the same everyday...

sometimes...i just hate being in college...as there are so many politics goin on...
haih...hopefully i could get out soon...

back to today...
went out with nicole and rachel to watch a movie...
i dont really plan to go home too late...so end up watching a 8.30 show...
which is full and we hav to sit at ROW C...imagine how front is that...
*sorry girls!*
oh btw...we watch NARNIA and PRINCE CASPIAN...

hmm...all of us never watch the 1st one...
so...end up....BLURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
hahahahahaha
but it was quite a nice movie...
just feel blur when they mention on certain things that i believe it should be found in the 1st Narnia...

so...since the movie ended at 11...n still quite early...i suggested to go for a drink in our usual mamak...hahaha
n....continue laughing and laughing n laughing...hahahahahahaha

so now...back home...kinda having sorethroat..."as USUAL!"
hahahaha

:P

so far...

hmm..this sem...so far...i guess i werent doin quite well...
1st of all...my major class...i dont know wat happen but somehow i cant play at 9am....
when i was practising...everything was quite ok...
but when i am in class...

i CANT EVEN PLAY THE 1st BAR!!!

*faint*

really got to fix this problem...or else...i wont learn anything this sem!

next...orchestra...
super stressful....ARGGG...
this new lecturer we hav...super STRICT!
plus...she is i believe...a perfect pitch fella...
so...slightly out of tune also she will comment on it...which is good la..but i think she shouldnt be overly fierce!
n...worst of all..this sem they have 2 pieces with cello as solo...
*faint*
n....again...we r combining with upm orchestra...
never worked with them be4...hopefully it will be a good experience...

hmm...i think the most enjoying subject i hav this sem is psychology...
it is a very interesting subject...
n ppl in this class is nice too!!
real sporting and fun!
*do hope music students can be like that too..."

cme? so far still ok...
but i am struggling with my part now...
super difficult!
haih...

hopefully everything will be better soon...

once again...in the state of confusion...

was trying to forget something...
but the something came back to me...and somehow i couldn't resist on having it back...

i really don't know wat to do or how to deal with it now...

is desperation a force that explains y i do so?

i was fighting with my angel that always tell me it is wrong to do so...
somehow...as usual..my devil's idea n advise sound more interesting and correct...
n in me now...my devil is controlling me...is it mend to be like that?

i DONT KNOW WAT TO DO!

mood swing...

sometimes...i really just dont understand why i could have mood swing...
i believe my friends would know n they dont like it...
but i HATE it as well...

thinking back...if i were my friends last time...i might just not hang out with me...
it is so irritating...

wat can i do???

these few days...my mood swings badly...
1stly...the stress that i have in orchestra...
unbearable...
it is not about the difficult passages in the music...
but...it is just people in the orchestra that makes me stress out...

after orchestra...my mood swings to more of the fun side...
thanks to joseph...
i believe without all his crapping jokes...
the moodyness would hav been worst...

after class...seems like i am still quite moody...
so...i got to say sorry to Raechen cause cant accompany her for lunch...

that was just thurs...

fri...night time....
i was fine throughout the day...
until i was driving to class...
the sadness just strike me again...
somehow i dont know why...
seems like suddenly...every sad things that had happen be4 pop out in my mind...
really wanted to cry at that point...
but because i need to teach..so..i'll just hav to hold back...

sounds like i am goin insane....

a moment of silent.......

1st came the cyclone nargis in myanmar..
now...the worst one...sichuan earthquake...

was browsing through the news on the sichuan earthquake...
it was terriblely bad...
especially those kids who perished when they were still studyin in school when the earthquake occur...

worst of all...imagine how sad it will be for the parents of those kids...
those are their only son or daughter...

it is estimate that...there will be most probably approximately 50,000 peoples will be killed in this disaster...

n...there are still about 26 malaysians that cant be found...
i just couldnt imagine how would i feel..if one of them is my family member...
so...i hope that those family members of these 26 peoples would still stay calm and have strong believe that their family members are still alive in china...

PRAY HARD...N BELIEVE IN FAITH...

n to all china peoples who still suffer or lookin for their love ones in the affected area...
STAND UP STRONG AND DONT GIVE UP...

n to those who are interested in donating money to the victim of sichuan earthquake....please do so by visiting some of the website here..

Red Cross Society of China
http://202.108.59.10/wsjz/wsjz.asp
http://www.redcross.org.cn
If you are not in China and using a Chinese address, add a number (i.g. 0) to the zip code will conform the format requirement. Also, to make it easier, try to use Visa card instead of other type of credit cards.

China Consulate, New York
http://www.nyconsulate.prchina.org/chn/ttxw/t434163.htm
If you read Chinese the post on this site has more details.

Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation (OSCC)
http://www.osccf.org/donation_method.aspx?lan=cn
Address:
Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation
793-10 Federal Road
Brookfield，CT 06804
Pay the Order of: Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation
Memo: China Earthquake Relief

Red Cross Canada
https://www.paypaq.com/redcross/new/index.php
This has been reported as a quick and easy way of donating.

Oxfam Hong Kong
http://www.oxfam.org.hk/public/main
"Oxfam Hong Kong staff members are in Sichuan and Gansu Provinces, working closely with the province-level Civil Affairs Department as well as the Poverty Alleviation Office. So far, the agency has committed HK$12 million (about US$1.5million) for the massive relief and rehabilitation effort."
They has designate account to accept donation for Si Chuan earthquake.
X06 : Sichuan Earthquake (May 08)
The assigned bank accounts no :
1) HSBC C/A 001-537000-012 (Account code : 16107)
2) BOC C/A 012-874-0010515-7 (Account code : 16122)

Red Cross - for China Earthquake
http://www.redcross.org/news/in/profiles/Intl_profile_ChinaEarthquake.html
"On May 12, the International Federation allocated nearly US $240,000 from the Disaster Response Emergency Fund (DREF) to help the RCSC deliver immediate assistance."

WorldVision - China Earthquake Relief
http://worldvision.org/news.nsf/news/china-earthquake-20080512?Open&lpos=erdm_chinaquake_learnmore
"Relief goods, including 800 tents, 30,000 quilts, 464,000 kilograms of food, and 2,000 shelter tarpaulins, will be provided to survivors in Qingchuan, a quake-affected county where World Vision has a community development program. The goods will be purchased in-country and distributed by World Vision's local staff and relief teams."

Mercy Corps - for China Earthquake
http://www.mercycorps.org/countries/china/2155
"Mercy Corps, through its local partner China Foundation for Poverty Alleviation (CFPA), is monitoring the situation and ready to rush aid to survivors. We will provide financial, material and human resources to support CFPA's emergency response. We have deployed two experienced staff members from our Beijing office to help coordinate efforts."

2008 Sichuan Earthquake Relief Committee by Oversea Chinese
http://web.wenxuecity.com/BBSView.php?SubID=finance&MsgID=1107371
http://www.tsinghuafoundation.org
This is organized efforts by Legal Immigration Association. The have been accepted for matching by Google, Yahoo, Spansion, Qualcomm, eBay and HP. "The 2008 Sichuan Earthquake Relief Commitee, formed by a group of volunteers co-ordinated by Silicon Valley Tsinghua Network, Legal Immigration Association, MITBBS and etc., is calling for donation to help China to recover from this huge disaster. We have opened a special account for China Earthquake Relief. All donations will be fully(100%) forwarded to Red Cross China and we don't charge any fee, also no fee charged when you donate online either through Google checkout or paypal."

For people want to directly send the donation to China by check or wiring from banks, here are the designate accounts in China:

Industrial and Commercial Bank of China branch
Bank: ICBC - Beijing Branch, Dong Si Nan division
Account Name: Red Cross Society of China
RMB account: 0200001009014413252

CITIC Bank branch
Bank: CITIC Jiu Xian Qiao Branch
Account Name: Red Cross Society of China
Foreign Currency account: 7112111482600000209

these are trusted association that you could donate money to...
beware of those who came to ask donation on the street as it might be scam....


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seriously...looking at all those disaster that had just occur recently as well as in the past...

tsunami 2004....nargis 2008...china earthquake 2008...

is our world still a safe place for us to live in?

"scientist believe that a HUGE earthquake had killed all dinosaurs and living things on earth..."

will this ever happen again in the future?
will mankind be like dinosaur where it vanished from the earth?

i believe....

God has its plan....

MAD!

AH!!!!!!!!!!
i am so ANGRY now!!!!!
just got a terrrrrrriiiiiibbbbbllllleeeeeeeeeee hair cut!!!!!!
grr...
dont wanna mention it!

lets talk about yesterday...
was kinda disappointed with my jury comment...
i thought i did quite a good job in it...but...
the fact is i did not... :(
but i must say...thanks mr lee for upgrading my marks...
:)

n yesterday...i was auditioning for orchestra...
hmm...she do hav quite a number of question to ask...hahaha
n i did some mistake though...playing in 1/2 of the tempo she gave...hahahaha
haih...hopefully i can get in la...
1st of all...i believe i will learn more in orchestra than choir...
2ndly...i would hav more time to PRACTICE...

i din expect my new piece to be that DIFFICULT!
well...once again...it is RACHMANINOFF...so it got to be difficult...hahaha
so got to "jia you" hahahaha :P

thank you...

i really really thank myself for making a good decision...
the decision was to change my major lecturer....
n of course...thanks mr lee...
because of him...i see a big changes in my piano studies...
the improvement can not only be seen inside me but my marks do prove that i IMPROVED!
comparing jury 1 and jury 2...my grade has improve by 2 grades... C+ to B+
thanks a lot... :)

oh...but...since i have been a bad girl in cello class...
my grade falls...from A+ to A...
never expect to get a A from joe...since i havent been practicing his pieces...
so i'll make up all the work that are not done previously this semester...
planning to prepare for gd 8 exam...but not looking forward to buy those books...
they are so EXPENSIVE...
the one i like...by Rachmaninoff...a tiny winy one...cost around RM150 for a PIECE!
*faint*
but it really sound good...so most probably i WILL buy it..
and not to mention...finding accompanist for that piece will be another HUGE problem...the accompaniment part is TOO DIFFICULT!
well...thats RACHMANINOFF...hahaha

oh...back to college...planning to join orchestra...but heard that the new lecturer is quite strict...so...just pray hard that i manage to get in...cause i just dont like the timing for choir...

finally...still waiting for history result...
WORRYING....
hopefully it will be fine...

so now...next semester objective....high achivement on cello! hahahaha

confession...

many thing goin thru my mind...
trust...commitment...communication...respect...romance...honesty...n lots more...
do these factors exist in a relationship...

do they?

can they all meet up n live together?
the answer...i believe it is a NO...
at least it will not happen in real life...
sad huh?

imagine every couple could fulfill these factors in their relationship..
there will no longer hav this word "DIVORCE" in the dictionary...

but y they can unite all these in a relationship?
y come they compromise?
i believe i hav seen too MUCH<---infinity
izzit that i never experience before thats y i dont understand the concept?
izzit?

but...one thing i am sure...
i feel unsecure now...being listening and experiencing friends around me getting into a relationship and the break off with a broken heart...
i have a little feeling that is hard to make me to be confident in a relationship...
am i over-protecting myself?
or am i just a loser in relationship...
i have no idea...

can someone please come and hold my hand and say..."trust me..you will be fine and happy to be with me for the rest of ur life.."

i guess i am too into dreamland..
please...someone come n wake me up...
will ya?

.........

i feel so stupid right now....
-_-

omg..

oh god...please tell me wat am i doin... *faint*

i dont know wat i want now...

dazed and confused...

life has no fun...

god has been creating more n more difficulties that human got to face...
more n more people got AIDS...
more n more n more people got cancer...
is all this indeed god's arrangement?
or is it yet another human made disaster?
any clue?

jay u're the best!!!

wonderful performance by jay chou and yundi li...
i wanna play it too!!!!!







1st- Etude Op.10 No5 aka "black keys"
2nd- Chopin waltz Op.64 No.2 and improvised
3rd- if not mistaken...it is variation on flight of the bumblebee..

jay u're the best!!!

1st time!

wow...i got to say rain is right...clubbin is fun!
hahahaha...costly too of course... :P

having lots of fun with miss rain and joelin yesterday nite..
1st we went to loaf...quite boring...not many ppl were dancing...
so decided to change location...we decided to go poppi...
grr....is not open...
so no choice we change to aloha...
then music there was quite boring...
n ppl there sucks!
so change location again!! hahahaha
at last we kinda found the right club...
although it is not the club we wanna go but at least the music there is much better than the rest...
n that place is thai club.. :)

having lots of fun there...
after a drink it blow up my mind and start dancing crazyly...hahahaha
hmm..by the way...the drink we ordered was called lamborgini<---dunno correct spellin or not...hahaha
i love it...very interestin drink and nice too! hahaha
hav a look!



suppose to hav fire...but cant really c it on the pic...



nice make up rite???
of course not i do it myself wan la!
miss SU-ANN did it for me and also miss JOELin doin the fake lashes for me...
thanks gurls!


for now...only 3 pic...cause the rest of the pic is with my friends...
so girls! quickly sent me the photos!!!!!! :)

yea!!!!!!!!!

finish all the stressful exams...................

well...1st of all theory.....
haih...no comment la...just feel stupid for the mistake that i've done...
history.....so difficult....dunno how to doooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!
jury....good good....no slips and i can actually control my mind and nerves now...hahahahahhaa....

opps...forgot to mention about cme...
i got quite a good comment from the jurers....so hopefully i'll get good result...
and thanks ms eyvonne for playin the violin for me!!!!
u are GREAT!!!!!!!!!
thank you so so so much!!!!!!!
:)

oh no!!!!!!!!!

AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHY THEY REMOVED THE SEVENTH DAY FROM YOUTUBE???????
i only watched till the 10 episode!!!!!!!!!!!

march shopping spree

OMG...this month i really shop a lot...
so now...i am broke...
so this is wat i buy this month...hehehehe


a t-shirt from jusco




a sandal also from jusco...regret buying this cause i saw a nicer one in PA.




a spag from giordano...




necklace from p & co.




ring from vincci accessories..




eye shadows from chanel




facial stuff from kose...




contact lenses




CD by GRuvavénue...a recommanded cd to buy...it is a good one!


and finally a good book...


beethoven's hair from borders...

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in addition....me and raechen went for a stress free dinner in chillis after mpo concert...
oh...be4 that...that day's concert was the best i ever watch!
THE RITE OF SPRING!!!!
it is a very very good job for MPO players and also well done to the conductor who did a very wonderful job....
his conducting was so precise and accurate!
(if u see be4 the score for rite of spring then u will understand why i said so..)
ok...back to chilis....
last year we were there to celebrate raechen and rain birthday...
we sat at a corner table...
this time where i go with raechen and we were sitting on the same table again...
seems like that table r specially reserved for us...hehehe
so this is wat we eat this time....very nice food! :)

thank you....thank you so MUCH!!!!

i really REALLY want to thank this family for bringing both my dog back to me!

today at 1pm...a girl and a guy came n asked if i've lost 2 dogs!
OMG....i really cannot believe that this incident actually came true!!!

i am so glad that they are back...!!!!!!!!!

THANKS A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps: just got to know...that girl who bring my dogs back called siew qi...
thanks again!

12th march 2008

a date that i will remember forever...
i had never been cryin so badly that tears just roll down my cheek naturally everytime i heard my dog name...messy...

messy and tidy has been missing for a day and i really dunno wat to do...
has been searching round n round my place and i just couldnt find them...
i am such a failure....

y those people wanna take my dog away from me!
even if u wanna take...i seriously dont mind if u take tidy away from me...
but not messy....
she is not fully recover yet and y u wanna take her away from me....

everytime....when i fall asleep....messy's face always appear like as if she is back home sleeping right beside me...but the truth is....she is not beside me...

everytime...when i step out from my house....
i always hope that she will be outside waiting for me to open the gate...
but the fact is...nobody is outside.......

please.....can that someone please return messy back to me....
i really needs her....

yet another year...

40 minutes more n i'll turn 20...
happy yet sad...
happy as i hav a year more n i'll hav all the freedom i want..
sad as it is yet another ordinary day where i will be celebrating with my lonely heart...

help?

i am sorry but yet you r worst than me...

just take this as a story...read it and delete it off ur mind..

sometimes...u really did something wrong but for the egoness...
u will never admit it..
n when 2 of this person meets and when there is something had just happen...
of course...i believe u will know wat will happen..
both of them definitely wont admit that they r wrong...

this happen once upon a time...where an accident had just happen to a child...
it is just a tiny little accident that : wat has damage can cure in perhaps 1 weeks?
it was just a tiny scratch on the face of that child which was made by a pet...
and the owner of that pet was kinda angry partly because she knew this child has been bullying her pet and thought it was the same thing happening again...
so..the owner of the dog, scolded and hit the cryin child as a punishment of bullying her pet...
this was acknowledge by the child's father...
he was angry...and he said, "hey,do u think a nasty pet's safety is more important that a human child?"
no reply from the owner of the pet..but in her heart she said,"a pet is also god's creation and it should be treated as equal as human.wats more,my pet has been living with me for more than 5 years, so the love i gave to my pet is even longer than the love u gave to ur child!"

the owner of the pet leaved without sayin anything to protest as she would rather keep a calmer feeling than to start a fight with that child's father...

as she is sitting with her dog, the witness of the incident came to her and said, "it was more of like ur pet's fault. that child was just tryin to play with ur pet and as ur pet was annoyed, ur pet scratched that child."
shocked....she never knew that actually happened...
at that very moment...she felt sorry about it and kinda regret for the action she has done to that child.

an hour later, she met the child's father comin out from a room where the child was in there too...
she thought of appologize but as the child's father passed by, a breeze of air with tobacco smell in it flew by....
she changed her mind straight away and sayin in her heart, "i thought or u sounds like u r caring and protecting ur child but seems like i am wrong...wat u hav done just now was just a surface thing...i am disappointed....."

now think about it..
u may forget the story above but
please
dont ever let ur family and friends to be ur 2nd hand smoker...
they r having higher risk of having lung cancer compared to u...
so be considered...

finally....

fuh....finally...all midterm and my recital are settled...
wat a RELIEVED!

valentine day?
celebrated my history textbook...hahahahaha...

i really feel it even more this year...the loneliness...
but i shall say...wat can i do?
living and studyin in a world with not much guys...
but even there are...most of them were like... <_>
haih...havin a bf also not a good thing...when there is a fight someone will definitely get hurt...
so how??

seriously...i am very jealous to those who hav bf...
like wat happen just now was...
i was in lift with my student and her husband is there...
while walkin out of the lift together...i was behind them..saw them holdin hand...
so sweet...
i do wish i hav one now...at least i wont be here bloggin...i will be like being hug by him as a relief for all the stress i had for midterms...

tong tong tong ciang....hhahahaha

HAppY CHineSe NeW YeaR!!!!

hmm...this year got not much nice chinese new year movie to watch...
so here i am..BLOGGIN!! hahahaha

well...i am just wondering....
y some ppl can think of love as such an important thing in their lifes...
not to say that i dont like being loved...but...
i believe i wont over liking it...

as in...y some girls cant lived without a guy???
y must they attempt to commit suicide just some a dump guy???
it is a weird scenario in my brain!

worst of all...some girls who hav good lookin face n body yet worryin of not gettin a new bf once they broke off with the previous one....wat nonsense is this???

didnt they think of how about those who not hav a good lookin body n face??
seems like they should be worried rather than those "pretty girls"!

WAKE UP PRETTY GIRLS!

oh well...thinkin back....no wonder i still dont hav a bf...hahahahaha...
but i would rather be a girl who hav BRAINS than those who have BEAUTY...
at least i will live longer than them...hahahahha

new year has come...

hehehe...althought new year had already reach almost a month ago but i am too busy...
so now is my chance to update a bit... :)

oh well...my new year came by with a bad news...
but who cares...a looooooooooooong year of 2008 r waitin ahead for me.. :)

so...this very new year...i made a BIG changes to myself...
1st of all...new hair style...

before....


after....


well...lots of comment i got from my friends...
some say nice....some say cute....some say wonderful...some say look like aunty...hahahaha...
as for me...i think it was kinda suits me...so means that kinda love my new hair style... (but troublesome!!!! hav to wake up slightly earlier to fix my hair...hahaha)

hmm...in between these few weeks of new year....i already bought 1 pair of heels...6 pairs of blouses...a jacket....a pants...and also 2 new ( )( )...hehehehe

well..kinda satisfied with my shoppin spree...but if can...i would still like to look for skirts...dresses....scandals(which i hav no choice)...and maybe a long skirts... :)

oh...be4 i forgot...today...went out shoppin in midvalley with my 2 girl girl again...where that pants and ( )( ) were bought today...

whereas on sun...that jacket and a blouse were bought in pavilion n also time square...

the rest? some in midvalley .... some in the curve ... and some in time square n sg wang...hehehehe

i really goin to admit it...i am a SHOPPIN QUEEN!!! (especially wat i hav done today..) kakakakakakaka....