=D

melted heart...
thank you so much...

i understand..

was watchin a show on astro aec just now..
it was a chat with our olympic silver medallist...lee chong wei...
feel very bad for our country sportmen and sportwomen as we wont understant how much stress they undergo during the competition..

n for chong wei...the stress he undergo is so much more bigger...as he know the whole country gave him a big hope on gettin the gold medal..but he failed to do so..
if i were him...i seriously dunno how to go on with my life..

but...he is a real strong man...still have the energy and commitment and full of hope in his up coming competition...hopefully...he will create a bigger history in his future in badminton...

besides...his coach...misbun sidek...is another great person and i shall say...malaysia are lucky to have both chong wei and sidek..
his coach...was a very hardworking and responsible coach...
despite on facing and take caring of his sick wife...
he still keep his responsible as chong wei's coach...followed and guided chong wei throughout this beijing olympic games 2008...
a SALUTE to both heros of our country...


seriously...i do understand how he felt right after the shuttlecock dint go pass the net and lost the game...
really..feels like it is the end of the world...
i believe...if i were him at that time...these questions will go through my mind...
"how could i not win this game?"
"why cant i find a strategy?"
"i am such a failure"
"i let my family,coach and country down"

then...tears will just automatically rolled down my cheek...

y i know?
cause i been through something like that be4...
eventhough it is not a big event like this...
eventhough i am not facing the stress as big as he does...
still..

wat happen was...i came out from my gd 7 practical exam..
that was the 1st time i feel like doomsday..
sent a msg to my teacher n said "i believe i am goin to fail my exam"
then...tears just keep on rolling down...
dont even dare pickin up my teacher's phone call..

n...the 2nd time was just early this month..
but dont feel like mentioning it..

anyway...again congrats chong wei and keep it up!
hopefully the next olympic you will get a gold medal!
:)

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wat r u thinking rite now?
i need an answer...

unpredictable

sometimes...i dont really know wat myself want in my life...
for instance...my career...wat am i really goin to be...piano teacher for the rest of my life? thats sound bored and no great achievement...
but i know myself...i am not a very good performer..so the performer line shouldnt be in my list..though i wish i could...

no wonder...my parent were kinda disagree when i decided to take music as my study course...but i guess they were ok with it now cause i get to earn some money from teaching...but serious speaking..i dont really like it..

oh well...i chose this road...so i got to continue walking through the whole process...

then...when it come to my personal life...
hmm...like i say be4...i always dream to have a very sweet and lovely relationship...
but...i feel that dream will always be dream...i guess it will never happen in real life...so i feel unsatisfied with it..
seriously...if it did came true...i know the relationship will last forever...

so shall i stop dreaming and wake up into the real world...
or continue with my sweet dream until i really bump into it?
argg...i hate being me...

good job!

yes...eventhough malaysia dint win the gold medal in badminton...
still chong wei did a good job!
congrats on getting silver medal for malaysia!!!!

but got to admit it...
lin dan is very good player!
no wonder he is no one player in the world!

sweet..

ever wonder...a person can be with u no matter wat happen to u...
eventhough u r not pretty...u has been diagnosed with chronic sickness..u r goin to die soon...
if there is such person...remember...they would want to live with u n capture every single things u do...every single smile u have...every single pain u r goin through...until the very end...

perhaps i am being a real pisces...also dream of having something...
i really hope that i could hav such person in life...
being with me no matter wat happen...support me...help me make any decisions that i have to make...n most important of all...make me happy...

a thought inspired by a drama called "the Seventh day"
i finally get to watch the whole drama...
perhaps another movie that inspired me was "Ps I Love You"

done..

finally...we r done with orchestra concert...
not too bad for this time...
as we hav our new conductress...ms cheryl mah...
most of the comment i got was actually quite good.

n also...thanks ms sun sun to come support me..
feel more motivated when there is someone i know that is enjoyin the show...
n at the end she gave me a hand<---was a soft toy hand of course..
thank you sooooooooo much....

seems like dr png and eliz is happy about the performance...
with the 1st time i saw eliz smillin while we play...
n also the 1st time..dr png said that it is an enjoyable performance...

so....after all the hard work n all the trouble we encountered for our piano ped...
we went to renderous cafe to have our dinner...
food there is not too bad...
i prefer to go sakae...:)

i really got to say..thanks again to ms sun sun...n her gift...
really brighten up my day...i werent in a very good mood be4 that...
hope that u werent disappointed as i werent the spotlight of the day..

falling...

feels like i am dropping from the sky...high...high..high up in the sky..
n when i reach the ground..it crushes my heart into billions of pieces...
i no longer have the energy to move...

almost there...

wow...finally the worst week is over...
done with aural...cme...choir concert...

now wats left is piano ped final project...orchestra concert and psychology...
cant wait!!!

went shopping with lovely girl which comprise of ms cindy..rain...and of course joelin...

1st time for all of us other than cindy to step into telawi street in bangsar..
well...quite a nice place to shop but just dont like the enviroment...i guess if this is in genting then it will be great...

y? all the boutiques is in the street and worst of all...most of them are on either 2nd floor or 3rd floor...
so hav to climb up n down...

i got a black blouse that i wanted which makes raechen jealous...hehehe
as usual...cindy got the most clothes...

cindy brought us to one of this shop that sells fake branded bags and so on..
was tempted to buy the LV wallet...but too bad...the owner dint reduce the price for me...so end up dint buy...

then...we head on to midvalley for KIM GARY!!!
yummy...
after kimgary...we go for a short shopping trip around mv..
and without choices...i got to buy a black pants which i dont really like from soda...
love the black pants from topshop but not size de... :(

oh well...head back to college around 5.15pm for cme concert...
love being the usher of the day cause dont need to sit in n watch...hahahaha

and finally...close my lovely day with a movie "meet dave" in time square..
enjoy it.. ^_^

*faint*

busy busy busy...
so busy!!!!!!!!!
y they cramp everything in this week!!!!!

CME assessment....aural finals....choir concert....orchestra rehersal...CME concert...final week for doin Piano ped final project....

wah.....crazy la!!!!

really cant wait for this week to end...

then i got all my time to study for psych's final...

the moment

i do enjoy the moment...
but is that REALLY true?
i cant tell it myself..

but seriously...
i do miss it...

ps: sorry if u dont understand wat i am sayin...cause i dont either..

finally i know something...

really...finally i knew wat i wan...
wat i really wan is a trip to a beach with my love ones...
imagine...how sweet and lovely it would be...sittin on the warm..soft and smooth sands...huggin each other...listenin to music from the sea...
looking at stars at night..

i believe this is wat i really wan now...