loneliness...

hmm...browsing through all the activities that my friends were doing...
everyone seems to have their one big bunch of friends...hanging out here n there...
having fun...

yea...i dont hav my own friends as well...but compare to them...
it is pretty small n quiet...

is that how musician should live their life?
honestly that is damn boring...

i can feel the loneliness even more as this sem...
i only hav 3 subjects where i need to go for lectures...
which also means that i only need to go uni for 3 days...

haih...i believe that is also part of the reason y i am so not into the music line...
imagine...
in the future...especially in malaysia...
the only job that have stable income is to become a piano teacher...
n that means that...
whole day...
u will sit in a tiny room...teaching those students that parents have too much money till they treat piano lesson as a time filler...
for now...i think out of all the student i have...only 2% of them were interested in music...
how sad can that be...

I DONT WAN TO LIVE IN SUCH A DULL LIFE!!!!!
GET ME OUT OF HERE!!