so far...

hmm..this sem...so far...i guess i werent doin quite well...
1st of all...my major class...i dont know wat happen but somehow i cant play at 9am....
when i was practising...everything was quite ok...
but when i am in class...

i CANT EVEN PLAY THE 1st BAR!!!

*faint*

really got to fix this problem...or else...i wont learn anything this sem!

next...orchestra...
super stressful....ARGGG...
this new lecturer we hav...super STRICT!
plus...she is i believe...a perfect pitch fella...
so...slightly out of tune also she will comment on it...which is good la..but i think she shouldnt be overly fierce!
n...worst of all..this sem they have 2 pieces with cello as solo...
*faint*
n....again...we r combining with upm orchestra...
never worked with them be4...hopefully it will be a good experience...

hmm...i think the most enjoying subject i hav this sem is psychology...
it is a very interesting subject...
n ppl in this class is nice too!!
real sporting and fun!
*do hope music students can be like that too..."

cme? so far still ok...
but i am struggling with my part now...
super difficult!
haih...

hopefully everything will be better soon...

once again...in the state of confusion...

was trying to forget something...
but the something came back to me...and somehow i couldn't resist on having it back...

i really don't know wat to do or how to deal with it now...

is desperation a force that explains y i do so?

i was fighting with my angel that always tell me it is wrong to do so...
somehow...as usual..my devil's idea n advise sound more interesting and correct...
n in me now...my devil is controlling me...is it mend to be like that?

i DONT KNOW WAT TO DO!

mood swing...

sometimes...i really just dont understand why i could have mood swing...
i believe my friends would know n they dont like it...
but i HATE it as well...

thinking back...if i were my friends last time...i might just not hang out with me...
it is so irritating...

wat can i do???

these few days...my mood swings badly...
1stly...the stress that i have in orchestra...
unbearable...
it is not about the difficult passages in the music...
but...it is just people in the orchestra that makes me stress out...

after orchestra...my mood swings to more of the fun side...
thanks to joseph...
i believe without all his crapping jokes...
the moodyness would hav been worst...

after class...seems like i am still quite moody...
so...i got to say sorry to Raechen cause cant accompany her for lunch...

that was just thurs...

fri...night time....
i was fine throughout the day...
until i was driving to class...
the sadness just strike me again...
somehow i dont know why...
seems like suddenly...every sad things that had happen be4 pop out in my mind...
really wanted to cry at that point...
but because i need to teach..so..i'll just hav to hold back...

sounds like i am goin insane....

a moment of silent.......

1st came the cyclone nargis in myanmar..
now...the worst one...sichuan earthquake...

was browsing through the news on the sichuan earthquake...
it was terriblely bad...
especially those kids who perished when they were still studyin in school when the earthquake occur...

worst of all...imagine how sad it will be for the parents of those kids...
those are their only son or daughter...

it is estimate that...there will be most probably approximately 50,000 peoples will be killed in this disaster...

n...there are still about 26 malaysians that cant be found...
i just couldnt imagine how would i feel..if one of them is my family member...
so...i hope that those family members of these 26 peoples would still stay calm and have strong believe that their family members are still alive in china...

PRAY HARD...N BELIEVE IN FAITH...

n to all china peoples who still suffer or lookin for their love ones in the affected area...
STAND UP STRONG AND DONT GIVE UP...

n to those who are interested in donating money to the victim of sichuan earthquake....please do so by visiting some of the website here..

Red Cross Society of China
http://202.108.59.10/wsjz/wsjz.asp
http://www.redcross.org.cn
If you are not in China and using a Chinese address, add a number (i.g. 0) to the zip code will conform the format requirement. Also, to make it easier, try to use Visa card instead of other type of credit cards.

China Consulate, New York
http://www.nyconsulate.prchina.org/chn/ttxw/t434163.htm
If you read Chinese the post on this site has more details.

Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation (OSCC)
http://www.osccf.org/donation_method.aspx?lan=cn
Address:
Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation
793-10 Federal Road
Brookfield，CT 06804
Pay the Order of: Overseas Save the Chinese Children Foundation
Memo: China Earthquake Relief

Red Cross Canada
https://www.paypaq.com/redcross/new/index.php
This has been reported as a quick and easy way of donating.

Oxfam Hong Kong
http://www.oxfam.org.hk/public/main
"Oxfam Hong Kong staff members are in Sichuan and Gansu Provinces, working closely with the province-level Civil Affairs Department as well as the Poverty Alleviation Office. So far, the agency has committed HK$12 million (about US$1.5million) for the massive relief and rehabilitation effort."
They has designate account to accept donation for Si Chuan earthquake.
X06 : Sichuan Earthquake (May 08)
The assigned bank accounts no :
1) HSBC C/A 001-537000-012 (Account code : 16107)
2) BOC C/A 012-874-0010515-7 (Account code : 16122)

Red Cross - for China Earthquake
http://www.redcross.org/news/in/profiles/Intl_profile_ChinaEarthquake.html
"On May 12, the International Federation allocated nearly US $240,000 from the Disaster Response Emergency Fund (DREF) to help the RCSC deliver immediate assistance."

WorldVision - China Earthquake Relief
http://worldvision.org/news.nsf/news/china-earthquake-20080512?Open&lpos=erdm_chinaquake_learnmore
"Relief goods, including 800 tents, 30,000 quilts, 464,000 kilograms of food, and 2,000 shelter tarpaulins, will be provided to survivors in Qingchuan, a quake-affected county where World Vision has a community development program. The goods will be purchased in-country and distributed by World Vision's local staff and relief teams."

Mercy Corps - for China Earthquake
http://www.mercycorps.org/countries/china/2155
"Mercy Corps, through its local partner China Foundation for Poverty Alleviation (CFPA), is monitoring the situation and ready to rush aid to survivors. We will provide financial, material and human resources to support CFPA's emergency response. We have deployed two experienced staff members from our Beijing office to help coordinate efforts."

2008 Sichuan Earthquake Relief Committee by Oversea Chinese
http://web.wenxuecity.com/BBSView.php?SubID=finance&MsgID=1107371
http://www.tsinghuafoundation.org
This is organized efforts by Legal Immigration Association. The have been accepted for matching by Google, Yahoo, Spansion, Qualcomm, eBay and HP. "The 2008 Sichuan Earthquake Relief Commitee, formed by a group of volunteers co-ordinated by Silicon Valley Tsinghua Network, Legal Immigration Association, MITBBS and etc., is calling for donation to help China to recover from this huge disaster. We have opened a special account for China Earthquake Relief. All donations will be fully(100%) forwarded to Red Cross China and we don't charge any fee, also no fee charged when you donate online either through Google checkout or paypal."

For people want to directly send the donation to China by check or wiring from banks, here are the designate accounts in China:

Industrial and Commercial Bank of China branch
Bank: ICBC - Beijing Branch, Dong Si Nan division
Account Name: Red Cross Society of China
RMB account: 0200001009014413252

CITIC Bank branch
Bank: CITIC Jiu Xian Qiao Branch
Account Name: Red Cross Society of China
Foreign Currency account: 7112111482600000209

these are trusted association that you could donate money to...
beware of those who came to ask donation on the street as it might be scam....


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seriously...looking at all those disaster that had just occur recently as well as in the past...

tsunami 2004....nargis 2008...china earthquake 2008...

is our world still a safe place for us to live in?

"scientist believe that a HUGE earthquake had killed all dinosaurs and living things on earth..."

will this ever happen again in the future?
will mankind be like dinosaur where it vanished from the earth?

i believe....

God has its plan....

MAD!

AH!!!!!!!!!!
i am so ANGRY now!!!!!
just got a terrrrrrriiiiiibbbbbllllleeeeeeeeeee hair cut!!!!!!
grr...
dont wanna mention it!

lets talk about yesterday...
was kinda disappointed with my jury comment...
i thought i did quite a good job in it...but...
the fact is i did not... :(
but i must say...thanks mr lee for upgrading my marks...
:)

n yesterday...i was auditioning for orchestra...
hmm...she do hav quite a number of question to ask...hahaha
n i did some mistake though...playing in 1/2 of the tempo she gave...hahahaha
haih...hopefully i can get in la...
1st of all...i believe i will learn more in orchestra than choir...
2ndly...i would hav more time to PRACTICE...

i din expect my new piece to be that DIFFICULT!
well...once again...it is RACHMANINOFF...so it got to be difficult...hahaha
so got to "jia you" hahahaha :P

thank you...

i really really thank myself for making a good decision...
the decision was to change my major lecturer....
n of course...thanks mr lee...
because of him...i see a big changes in my piano studies...
the improvement can not only be seen inside me but my marks do prove that i IMPROVED!
comparing jury 1 and jury 2...my grade has improve by 2 grades... C+ to B+
thanks a lot... :)

oh...but...since i have been a bad girl in cello class...
my grade falls...from A+ to A...
never expect to get a A from joe...since i havent been practicing his pieces...
so i'll make up all the work that are not done previously this semester...
planning to prepare for gd 8 exam...but not looking forward to buy those books...
they are so EXPENSIVE...
the one i like...by Rachmaninoff...a tiny winy one...cost around RM150 for a PIECE!
*faint*
but it really sound good...so most probably i WILL buy it..
and not to mention...finding accompanist for that piece will be another HUGE problem...the accompaniment part is TOO DIFFICULT!
well...thats RACHMANINOFF...hahaha

oh...back to college...planning to join orchestra...but heard that the new lecturer is quite strict...so...just pray hard that i manage to get in...cause i just dont like the timing for choir...

finally...still waiting for history result...
WORRYING....
hopefully it will be fine...

so now...next semester objective....high achivement on cello! hahahaha