life is so unpredictable...

i would say i'm quite a systematic person...partly it is because of my job?
but when comes to life...i feel so lost...so so so lost...
i dont know what should i do and what i shouldnt

being a freelancer is very unpredictable...
my salary is always unstable...
recently many students seem to drop out due to personal reason...
left me wondering should i open up more slots in music center?

how could i earn more if i only depend on music center??
what should i do to provide myself better financial status?

there is always a regret in my mind that why i choose to pick up music...
it is true that when u r doin something u like, you will lost something else?
i kinda enjoy teaching...but unfortunately teachers r not being appreciate well enough...

oh well...i got to just bear with it...i always believe God hav a plan for me...
God is really putting me into a tough test in my life exam...
i've been trying hard to coupe with it...
i've gone through what i thought to be something i cant except...

one thing i feel grateful is that God bring me to someone who has been always be there for me...
always trying to treat me like a princess...
of course God too has planed difficulties in my relationship....
but again... without these difficulties i'm sure our relationship wouldnt grow stronger...

i hope my toughness can overcome every difficulties He gives me in the future...
life's just like rainbow...without rain and sunshine...there will be no rainbow...
but when rainbow comes...it is the most gorgeous moment of all time...

i'm waiting for my RAINBOW to be formed!!
i'm sure one day it will!!!!

one word

disappointment...

Life road

Sometimes I wonder if this is not the road I've taken, what would I have been doin now.. But what I know is I don't know what should I do now.. My life seems to be so laid back.. Not earning enough money to get whatever I wan.. Not able to live with the life I wan.. I really felt so lost... Plan were not going as planned... I just can get used to it.. Am I being to squarish? I'm so used to planned life that when life doesn't go according to plan I just felt very frustrated.. I wanna move on wih my life.. I wanna get into a new chapter in my life.. Because I'm stuck in between.. I am stuck at a T junction .. Not knowing to turn left or right.. Shall I create another road other than left to right? But once I think of it.. Creating another road.. Need deep courage.. Aih...how? Can someone guild to the best road..