is over....

is over for him,my beloved grandpa...

he has finally ends the pain that he is suffering yesterday...
he leave us all today around 6 something in the evening...
as he leaved...he wasnt alone...many of his daughters,sons ,grandchildren n of course his wife were surroundin him when he is leaving...

it was a relieve for him i guess....as he always wish he could be the 1st to leave...n now he has...

i wasnt there when he is leaving...but...at least i saw him in the afternoon today...
i dont hav the courage to go stand by the side of his bed n hold his hand...i just cant do it...
i was tryin to be brave n tell myself not to cry in front of him...but tears just rollin down my cheek...i walked out...

be4 we actually when into the ward n c him...i heard that he is suffering from breathin difficulty...only medication were preservin his life till this evening...at that time...i know the time is here....he will be living us...

n there he go....to a place where peace n happiness were in the air...
good bye grandpa...

in memories...Beh Meok Kim...Rest In Peace...

yet another time..

cny...dont u think it is a fun n nice festival....
1st u get to go for reunion dinner...where u n ur family can enjoy nice n yummy food together...
n then...the best part was to get lots of lots of ang pau...

well...i think the night be4 cny n the 1st day of cny is fun as everyone get together on these 2 days to hav a nice chit chattin about wat hav happen the whole year round....
i dint mean that the 2nd day of cny is not nice...it is nice but....just that hearin all that had happen n is happening to my mother's side grandma n also my sick uncle just make me feel sad n also angry...but i get to overcome it...maybe it is because they dont used to live with me since i was young...

on the 3rd day of cny....me, my parent n also my 2 cousins r happily goin out for a short distance holiday trip...half way to our destination....my dad receive a phone call sayin that my grandpa got stroked n was sent to hospital...according to my uncle...it was 1st thought it was just light stroked...but after he was sent to scan his brain...it was known that his blood vessel in the brain has already burst n bleeding happened...when we know he was in bad condition,it is 4pm de...

we reach kjg hospital around 5pm...n get to know the whole situation from the doctor..according to the doctor...he,my grandpa hav no much hope...most the private hosp will not accept his case not even the hosp kl...as his brain will fill with more water n blood as hours n hours pass by...sooner when there are no more space for the blood to fill in the brain...it will then go right down to the back of his neck..n that time he will face breathin difficulties n....

i seriously never thought of this day will come...as he has been living with me for a few years be4 n also he n my grandma is the one who watches me growin up...n also...i really misses the days where he fetches me to n back from school everyday...i always thinks that he is the best grandpa i ever had....i will definitely miss him a lot after he lives this world...right now...i hope that he will pass away in a peace n non painful way...as which i think he would think the same as well...

shoppin!!

finally get to go shoppin with rain n siaw jiun...

we went to low yat plaza...sg. wang....n also time square...<----in a DAY!

hahaha...girls seriously can shop for a super duper long time!

so supposingly my target for this shoppin is to get my new year clothes...

but i already guess it....cant find anything that suits my taste...haih...

but luckily i at least diden go back home empty handed....hehehe

brought a sunglasses from vincci in sg wang...n also a new webcam from low yat...

haih...although diden get any clothes but nevermind la!

hehehe...

this is me n siaw jiun... ;)

n this is rain n me with my new sunglasses on...cool or not?? :P