the proposal...eve of christmas...

awww.....
he really did proposed!!
feel blessed having a bunch of friends supporting his proposal...

not forgetting to mention is he is so unexpected that he got my bbf number and asked her to record a video for me!!!

first time crying out so loud in front of so many people... so embarrassing!!!!

but yea...is very magical...with floating photos and hello kitty balloon...also my beloved lilies to accompany the whole event...


and i was really happy that he got me a ring that is similar to tiffany's setting... how sweet!!!!!

love you forever dear... muaks!

1314

the day is booked.. now there are 89 days..13 hours and 26 more minutes to go......

there are many commitments and worries when it comes to this event.. in fact.. before it even started.. i have been standing on rock for quite sometime... it even makes me think that is he really into me?

i guess i was too naive when it comes to this kind of life changing event.. i never thought of things that he is worried of.. but do trust me and yourself.. we CAN make it happen..

even through the process of buying the most important thing could tell.. I would be the most happiest girl in the world.. he would always stand by me..

we look through everywhere...every single shop...and every single corner.. i'm at the verge of giving up.. but u hold up my strength and leads me to the right one.. I'm happy with what I see and choose.. because that is what u think is nice too.. having both of us agree with one thing.. thats the most important idea of being together..

the process of choosing the ring will definitely be in my heart forever.. because it shows...
one ring rules all..

Thank you dear..I love you...

Should I give up or keep chasing pavement...

Everything I do now... I seems like walking in mist.... I can't see what is happening...

My studies... N also.......

I'm so lost,,,,,

Nobody able to pull me out of it...

Not even you... U left me hanging... Everything u said always tell me that u would not do it...

I'm tired...so tired..... Seems like I don't gain your trust... I can't heal your previous wound perhaps...

So should I stop trying?

One of my life decision

Today..
I have come to a point that I have to make a decision that will change my life..

Is so hard to make the decision as it has been very long since I stepped out of it..

But making wrong step could also change my life...

Even though I knew it yet I still can decide..

How!!!????

Is like do or die situation now..
Everyone I knew tell me to go ahead is a good opportunity but still..................

cny 2013

first few days of cny still doing well...
but gonna collapse soon...

everyone having their love ones to celebrate cny but not me..
well...i'm trying hard to adapt to it..
but cant blame me to break down..
my bbf is not with me in msia..
others busy with their love ones..
even if i wanna work my student wont want to come..

i thought i could go thru today..
morning..afternoon.. still doing well..
night became unbearable..

i still hav 3 more days to go before i could at least teach..
what can i do..

the "Awwwwwwww" video

those videos are really nice to watch
super touching
but is not good for me as the more i expect the least i'll get...

:'(