the world greatest destroyer...

n this award goes to my niece...
she destroy my...
*my psp screen protector
*my stationaries...
*my urtext
*my toys
*my hairclips
*my room wall decorations

and many more...

and today...a priceless thing of mine..
she broke it...and i guess my mom hav to clean it and throw it into the dustbin..
n that is a bottle of sand from samui..
memories of our 1st anniversary in samui..
our 1st time travelling oversea..
our 1st anniversary gift...

now it is in the dustbin...

heart broken...
speechless...
sad...

even if i could go back to samui to get those sands...there are no longer the same... *_*'

DEADline..

i just realize a huge huge HUGE mistake done by me...
i forgot to sign my students up for theory exam...GOSH...how could this happen?

i am so so so so so so so so so so so GUILTY right now...
OMG how could this happen to me????

n honestly...i dont mean to blame...but i think my center should do what my other center does...
which is to ask us to write down who is taking exam in my studio and give me form when time arrives...
yes...it is totally TEACHER's responsibility to remind student to sign up for exam...
but cant totally blame us on forgetting about the deadline...especially when one teacher hav so many students..

aih...i really feel so bad that i think about how to explain to my student's parent whenever i am free these 2 days....
like last night...i cant even sleep welll...ARRRGGGGG...

well...for what i know is that...all i can do is to try my best to teach them the next grade while waiting for the next intake...

*CRY OUT LOUD!!!!!*

sorry sorry sorry...i really dont mean to...please forgive me...

anyone interested to do reseach on me?

my mood swings all the time...
i can be very happy at a moment and sad or frustrated on the other hand..

like today...i just have no idea why am i so frustrated with dear...
i know he did nothing wrong...but everything he said...i just feel like...GRRRrr...

then thanks to the power of deserts....
my mood went to the happier side...

funny me...
actually this has happen since teenager...
but y is that so?

anyone wanna do research on my psycho/?
u will be most welcome... :P

ps: sorry dear...thanks for everything u did to cool me down...muahahaha

glad that i found u...

yes...as simple as the header...
love you...

feel great to be loved...

i am glad that i have sooooooooooo many ppl who love me...
thanks...

the hope crashing down to the solid ground..

once...i thought i have receive hope...hope to be me again..
but the strings attached to the hope were broken n gone crashing down to the ground...
it did passes my hand...
but..
it slip off...

yes...before that, i already overcome my fear..
because at that time...i know i still have hope...
but now...my hope have scattered into pieces and could never be mend..

worst of all...what i am having now may not be permanent..

is quite difficult to go through this rough times...
but if this is what God has planned for me...
i will obey and try my best to coped with it..

i AM really trying my best to live as happily as i can...
i hope this energy will be enough for me to go through the entire life...

i guess this kind of failure makes me a better person?
hopefuly...

A message to remember...

hmm...this 2 months had gave me few messages in becoming a piano teacher..
heard a numbers of case from different different people...

Case 1:
older piano teacher is being too traditional that most of them cant accept that there are many new methods that is worth trying...

from this...it is very clearly seen that piano teacher world is too invert...they r always stucked in a tiny room and teacher students throughout their life...never ever they think that world has change and same as them...
Get out of the 4 walls room and breathe in new air please! there are so many new knowledge around!!!

Case 2:
Piano teacher thinks that they should be paid very on time! (those working in centers?) n their consequence of not getting paid on time is:  "teacher: admin! cancel all my lessons of the day...
                                              admin: erm...what is the reason i should tell your student?
                                              teacher: oh...tell them...the boss is not paying me...so i am not teaching till i      
                                                           am PAID...

Whoa....geng...so old de still dont know how to maturely treat things..

yes is understandable that most of us having commitments...but be considerate? your boss need time to process your cheques! so once in a while they may not get it done on time? do u know that everywhere u work...this kind of situation does happen... dumb...

Case 3:
"teacher X: admin...can u please call my 6pm student's parent...tell them that i am not suitable to teach their 
                  child...i will tranfer it to teacher Y (teacher Y havent agree yet) and teacher Y already
                  agreed..ok? MAKE SURE I WILL NOT SEE THIS STUDENT ANYMORE NEXT WEEK!admin: er...u just teach that student for 1 month? y u think that u r not suitable to teach that student?
teacher X: (rudely he said) just put it this way...because i am a man...
                 (pause awhile) and anyway...i dont mind losing this student because the money is like kacang
                  putih...

WHAT kind of teacher is this? very obviously he is teaching for money...not for the sake of sharing this art to people who r interested...what on earth???

so conclusion is that...to me...being a piano teacher..
1. be open minded to watever new input that is around...never ever close yourself to your own world..
2. be more considerate with your boss...he/she could not be nice but yet he/she is the one that provide working opportunity for u? if u really dont like it...dont work for a boss then...be boss urself n u will c how difficult life could be when dealing with different different people..
3. students maybe difficult to deal with...especially those who r not so talented...then again..try your best to help out! anyhow..u hav decide to be a piano teacher...so be responsible...