The feeling of gratefulness

 Was listening to 98.8fm on the way back..

A girl called to ask for opinion on how should she deal with her mom..

Her mom strongly dislike her bf and always had a fight whenever she mention about her bf..

She is feeling very down as this has happen for the past 3 years..

She is almost 30yrs old and felt that it is almost time for marriage..

But yet feeling lost as she will never get her mom's blessing..

She and her bf broke up for 4 times just because they felt that maybe their relationship will never work because of her mom..

And reason behind her mom's hate toward his bf is just because her bf comes from a single parent family and weren't rich..

I felt for her.. I was kinda like in her situation 5 years ago..

But I got to say I'm blessed.. My mom was not as stubborn as hers..

My parent knew nothing can change the fact that I like my hubby..

They have tried to stop me but my perseverance keep me from stop trying..

Yes.. My hubby was not rich and not highly educated..

But I still decided to pick him because he is one of those goodman who has extinct from this world..

I have never seen a man so patient when dealing with a bossy gf.. 

And I see his determination in doing something.. So even he have no money now.. He is trying hard to keep up..

One day, when my mom ask when will both of u get married...

I was flying in the air... Cause I knew my mom finally sees the good side of my relationship..

Also, I felt that my perseverance pays off..

Thank you mom for having in trust in me.. I know for everything u do and said it is for my own good..

I will not blame anybody if me and my hubby doesn't work out in the future.. Because I'm the one who choose my own faith.. For the moment, of course I'm hoping that we will live happily ever after.. But I always remind myself, prepare for the worst..u might never know what will happen in the future.. Only God knows and I will be faithful with what You have plan ahead for me..

Approximately 1 more month to go before the actual day.. Can't wait ☺️

i'm lucky to have you...

I pretty stress up with my current job in uni... I know in some ways it is a good experience, but to no avail, I just hate all these tedious work.. it is just ridiculous..

Ok... enough of these dramas in uni...

I am blessed with a lovely hubby and in-laws...

there are approximately 3 more months to go before my wedding ceremony which then i will be officially Mrs. Ding. Of course, I'm legally married now as we have signed the paper on the very special date 1.3.14 which represent together forever.

learned from the movie, brides war, a girl would know her fiancee better during the time when she is preparing for the wedding.. indeed, I see more good qualities in him..

as usual, he always pamper me with things that I want.. rings... furniture... room layout... wedding photos... and many more...

what makes me more touched is that his parent always try to accommodate what we needs as well!
they are willing to provide me spaces for my grand piano though at first I thought i'm going to just move my upright to his house due to limited spaces.

I was skeptical with the idea of living with my in-laws but yet feeling more assured now. my hubby knew about it, he too being a understanding hubby as he promised me if ever I feel like moving out, he would take the move. I do hope to have our own place, but at the same time felt bad if his parent have to live alone. so my only hope is that we get to live harmoniously together and for that I wouldn't mind to sacrifice my dream...

So yea.. I'm glad that I will be married soon and in fact i felt that i pick the right year to do so... so that at least I could release my studies' stress through thinking on my happy wedding preparation...

CANT WAIT.... 3 more months to go!!!!

the proposal...eve of christmas...

awww.....
he really did proposed!!
feel blessed having a bunch of friends supporting his proposal...

not forgetting to mention is he is so unexpected that he got my bbf number and asked her to record a video for me!!!

first time crying out so loud in front of so many people... so embarrassing!!!!

but yea...is very magical...with floating photos and hello kitty balloon...also my beloved lilies to accompany the whole event...


and i was really happy that he got me a ring that is similar to tiffany's setting... how sweet!!!!!

love you forever dear... muaks!

1314

the day is booked.. now there are 89 days..13 hours and 26 more minutes to go......

there are many commitments and worries when it comes to this event.. in fact.. before it even started.. i have been standing on rock for quite sometime... it even makes me think that is he really into me?

i guess i was too naive when it comes to this kind of life changing event.. i never thought of things that he is worried of.. but do trust me and yourself.. we CAN make it happen..

even through the process of buying the most important thing could tell.. I would be the most happiest girl in the world.. he would always stand by me..

we look through everywhere...every single shop...and every single corner.. i'm at the verge of giving up.. but u hold up my strength and leads me to the right one.. I'm happy with what I see and choose.. because that is what u think is nice too.. having both of us agree with one thing.. thats the most important idea of being together..

the process of choosing the ring will definitely be in my heart forever.. because it shows...
one ring rules all..

Thank you dear..I love you...

Should I give up or keep chasing pavement...

Everything I do now... I seems like walking in mist.... I can't see what is happening...

My studies... N also.......

I'm so lost,,,,,

Nobody able to pull me out of it...

Not even you... U left me hanging... Everything u said always tell me that u would not do it...

I'm tired...so tired..... Seems like I don't gain your trust... I can't heal your previous wound perhaps...

So should I stop trying?

One of my life decision

Today..
I have come to a point that I have to make a decision that will change my life..

Is so hard to make the decision as it has been very long since I stepped out of it..

But making wrong step could also change my life...

Even though I knew it yet I still can decide..

How!!!????

Is like do or die situation now..
Everyone I knew tell me to go ahead is a good opportunity but still..................

cny 2013

first few days of cny still doing well...
but gonna collapse soon...

everyone having their love ones to celebrate cny but not me..
well...i'm trying hard to adapt to it..
but cant blame me to break down..
my bbf is not with me in msia..
others busy with their love ones..
even if i wanna work my student wont want to come..

i thought i could go thru today..
morning..afternoon.. still doing well..
night became unbearable..

i still hav 3 more days to go before i could at least teach..
what can i do..

the "Awwwwwwww" video

those videos are really nice to watch
super touching
but is not good for me as the more i expect the least i'll get...

:'(

how are you doin, tiffanie?

a question asked by fb..

tiffanie said i dont know... i dont know what should i do. what is the correct steps that i'm suppose to take...

can someone answer me?

Another false alarm?

Hmm.. Seems like Mayan prediction was not exactly accurate.. No dooms day on 21/12/12

Like what said in the bible is true.. Nothing like this is predictable.. Which I totally agree with it even I'm not Christian.. :)

Can't wait for 2013 to arrive!!!

Cause seriously.. This is definitely not my year.. Hopefully I can live through 9 days peacefully...

a day to be remembered!

this week i was over joyed!
this is the week where it is my first time sending students for competition..
it was the 13th hong kong piano competition (preliminary round in malaysia)
in fact, out of 3, 2 of them got into finals!!!

it was a feeling that you cant imagine unless u experienced it yourself..
it was definitely my students effort to bring them to the finals..

yesterday was my gd 1 student who tried for the finals unfortunately her competitors managed to win as they played a very fast and technically demanding piece.. in my heart she did her very best!!

and today i witness myself my gd 8 student's victory! out of 5 picked, she was awarded with 2nd prize where there r actually no 1st prize winner as judges felt they r not good enough for hong kong (asia pacific) competition.

before the announcement, i was very very nervous as personally i feel she should be one of the top 3.. and yes she is!!

and as this is her first time goin for competition as well as my first time sending students for competition, it was a superb result!!!!

I AM SO HAPPY!!! :D

CONGRATULATIONS to KIMBERLY!!

driving home is never easy anymore...

it has been 2 weeks.. around this time...
a terrible accident happen to me...
something i never expect will happen...
n definitely dont wan it to happen...

and because of this...
driving home these has been real hard...

every time i pass by the same road the same place...
i flashed back what had happen...
i recall what happen...
i recall what has happen...

felt sad for knowing what has happen to the other person...
felt sad for causing so many people to worried for me...
especially dear and my parent...

i'm really sorry...

thank God that I was safe...
today I experience something that i never ever wanna experience anymore...
is freaking scarry...

now I need God to please help that man to be able to wake up...
And hope he can fully recover...

I'll pray very hard for his recovery...
Please help him...God..
Please...

life is so unpredictable...

i would say i'm quite a systematic person...partly it is because of my job?
but when comes to life...i feel so lost...so so so lost...
i dont know what should i do and what i shouldnt

being a freelancer is very unpredictable...
my salary is always unstable...
recently many students seem to drop out due to personal reason...
left me wondering should i open up more slots in music center?

how could i earn more if i only depend on music center??
what should i do to provide myself better financial status?

there is always a regret in my mind that why i choose to pick up music...
it is true that when u r doin something u like, you will lost something else?
i kinda enjoy teaching...but unfortunately teachers r not being appreciate well enough...

oh well...i got to just bear with it...i always believe God hav a plan for me...
God is really putting me into a tough test in my life exam...
i've been trying hard to coupe with it...
i've gone through what i thought to be something i cant except...

one thing i feel grateful is that God bring me to someone who has been always be there for me...
always trying to treat me like a princess...
of course God too has planed difficulties in my relationship....
but again... without these difficulties i'm sure our relationship wouldnt grow stronger...

i hope my toughness can overcome every difficulties He gives me in the future...
life's just like rainbow...without rain and sunshine...there will be no rainbow...
but when rainbow comes...it is the most gorgeous moment of all time...

i'm waiting for my RAINBOW to be formed!!
i'm sure one day it will!!!!

one word

disappointment...

Life road

Sometimes I wonder if this is not the road I've taken, what would I have been doin now.. But what I know is I don't know what should I do now.. My life seems to be so laid back.. Not earning enough money to get whatever I wan.. Not able to live with the life I wan.. I really felt so lost... Plan were not going as planned... I just can get used to it.. Am I being to squarish? I'm so used to planned life that when life doesn't go according to plan I just felt very frustrated.. I wanna move on wih my life.. I wanna get into a new chapter in my life.. Because I'm stuck in between.. I am stuck at a T junction .. Not knowing to turn left or right.. Shall I create another road other than left to right? But once I think of it.. Creating another road.. Need deep courage.. Aih...how? Can someone guild to the best road..

girl..

living as a girl is never easy...
if i ever had a child i think i prefer it to be a boy than a girl...
though i love girls cause i get doll them up and treat her like a princess...
but think harder...i dont wan her to go thru what girls hav to go thru...

as a girl...we always care about others but not ourselves..
you may be telling yourself that i love myself more than anyone else.
but when it comes to reality, it is totally the other way round.
especially when you r in love with someone...n especially the someone is your beloved boy.

he is always the priority...
he is always in your mind...
he is always your everything...

but in his mind,

my job is my priority...
my friends are in my mind...
my mistress is my everything...

but whats the point of complaining here?
thats the fact...
that is how God created us...

we r created to withstand all pains and sorrows..
girls have to go thru hard times in relationship...
girls have to withstand being hurt by guys...
girls have to withstand giving birth to new life...

to me...pain in giving birth is a joy...
cause only us girls manage to bring a new life to this world...
but sad case is guys dont appreciate that...
i wont say all guys r the same...but there are at least 30-40% r like that...
while girls hav to work...hav to take care of our child...hav to even take care of our man at home..
but...guys...they give excuses that they r busy...they r tired after work and etc...
what makes them different from a girl...
we need to work...so we wont be tired from work?
well...guys r not willing to take care of their kids..fine...
whats worst? i guess u n i knows it well...

thats the fact...girls..anything happen...take a deep breathe and let it go...
because the fact is we have to withstand everything that you dont want to withstand..

never trust movie storyline..

wonder...

sometimes i wonder when n how will it happen...
seen and heard many wonderful ones..
will mine be the same?

or maybe it will not happen at all?
dare not think too much...
dare not hope too much...

if i did...i will be comparing...
n i know is not a good thing...

let it comes naturally...
=)

hurt.

i have once been stab deep inside when i found the truth..
is healing as days goes by...
but today..i been hurt once more on the same wound...
a wound that i hav cover till the extend nobody could see it....
but u stab right thru it again..

u r trying to give me hope that the wound will disappear..
but i'm positively sure it will not...
it will stay there forever!
in fact...it may be worst in the future...

i'm trying not to think about it..
please dont remind me about my wound...
please...

something that i've been waiting for...

the day has arrive...

i finally heard the approval words from you..

i've been waiting for it for 30months..

i hope u really mean what u hav said..

i really hope that u will wish me happiness..

i hope what u have said is from the bottom of your heart...